29OCT update is on onsugar [x
hahas

THANKS DEAREST&MYGIRLS for 28th celebration till the strike of the actual day x33
THANKS JASMINE, LING.JIE, ALAN, CAIFA&GERALD.DI for 29th celebration *

*thanks to dearest for fetching me around these days*
*thanks to those tt wished me*

*advance thanks to kenny.di to accompany me tmr*
*advance thanks to p-chan on booking me on sat night though idk what you plan yet*
LOL

28thOCT*
dearest fetched me from sch&ii was with him ever since till he send me back home on 29OCT 2:51am
xD
hahas

fetched wayneGF first at her sch then michBF opposite her hse
&then we're rotting at SP next while waiting for yutingMyLady/fiance xD
she's late for 27mins&dunno how many secs =x *we still love you&we know it isnt your fault* [x
lastly pearlBBmeimeii at tiong xD
&we're on our way to YISHUN *wow ! back to sch yo ! hahas, no la*
yishun for ramen !!
bf&MyLady ate different stuffs but it still seems so appetizing D:
hahas ~

dearest went to withdraw money first so we girls were talking away while eating,
finally dearest's back and you sld be glad to have all my ladies around you lors ~
=x
hahas, xing fu uhhs *grins*
&those cheeky girls said they wanna go withdraw money and came back with..
CAKIIE&lingerie from each of them *faints*
MyLady's the most cheeky one among them all *seriously idk how to use uhhs*
hahas, maybe you girls sld show it to me instead *winks*

dearest's friends reached too !
&ii was finding the present they gave SUPER familiar lurs ~
hahas
but really.. thanks ! {x

then we're like having photo taking session lors !
must post here&there *faints*
hahas

&we're off to Henderson wave !! xD
had heart-heart talks with us girls and of cos PHOTOS !
didnt get to be with dearest tt much but really appreciate it tt he's so patient ~

was dead tired when ii reached home but still didnt sleep till 4+ nearing 5am
hahas, was chatting with bbmeimeii online @.@
hees ~

next post wld be on the actual day after 29oct have past kies [x

it's 4+ am and i'm still awake @.@
*MyLady, yes yes ii know i've reached home way earlier but hehe...*
had a lil tiff with him cos ii said maybe i'd be in sch uni
then he said it's your bdea le all those things
then started to 'quarrel' a lil then he kup my phone cos ii kept quiet..

idk la ..
wished di cld be awake now to pei me talk D:
&ii needa start preparing at 6+ -.-
FK ! later BAO become PANDA de uhhs ~
think mostly gonna just sleep in class and ask gerald.di to help me do my project =x
* yawns *

wanna sleep but no mood to sleep, how how ?
hais ~

anyways dearest rented a car so he picked me up at NUH just now then go eat
then drive till bedok there just to pump petrol -.-
then pick MyLady up from cck *far siol !*
then went mustafa *ii know ii know, sot sot right ?*
LOL
then to holland V&the last place is henderson wave there but we're right at the top
didnt know how to go to the wave place so just sit there talktalk [x
*sorry dearest for 'throwing' you to a corner* @.@
heh ~

okays.. alien land is calling for me..
so............
just hope ii can wakeup later xD
wahahahas ~

QUEST CREW

as of ytd morning,
i'm fearing for the worse..
ii wont blog it out now till the results are confirm /=

been moodless the whole of today and sudden breakdown at diff times.
nobody knows yet except for dearest&kennyDI,
sorry ii cldnt tell you girls yet *you know who you are*
ii just somehow feel i'd be a burden and depend on your too much if ii told you all.
gomen ne ~
i'd let your be the first to know when the time comes k ?
*loves*

might be canceling the clubbing next week..
if it's bad then i'm just stay home all the way..
at least later it's the last day of sch so ii dont needa be so exhausted from putting a dam smile -.-
why cant ii just show my true self ehhs ?
*BAHHS !*

ii dont even have the mood to sleep now..
feel like drinking but ii dont have any mixers to go with black label @.@
wth !
&ii hate drinking pure so it's outta the question D:

papa came to the hospital again but we didnt really talk..
it suddenly seems so weird seeing him..
last time i'd yearn to see him and not feel the least awkward around him,
but now it's like total strangers.
though i do still yearn a lil for his care *if he even bothers bout kor&me*
kor seems to know everything bout this family and idk a thing..
why ?
aint ii old enough to know it too ?
or does mama plan to never let me know and slowly let kor spill the beans ?
hais ~

ii aint wanted anywhere so why am ii here ?
i'm dumb, stupid, useless and a burden to others..
so why ..
why do ii still wish someone would think of me as special when ii know it's impossible ?
i'm always doing everything wrong..
everyone always seem to say tt since young so i'm kinda immune to it..
but why is there a lil yearning tt one day there'd be someone telling me it's not my fault, it's not my wrong ?
heh..

stop dreaming !!
it'd never happen..
not in this life..
not in the next or the next after either..
never...

afternoon peepos ~

my dream and what korkorr just told me made me moodless lurs D:
korkorr told me papa went to the hospital to see mama ..
ii wanna see papa too !
ever since the day papa stopped answering our calls i've been soooo sensitive to the word papa/dad/father.
papa.. doko ni iru no ?

&ii dream tt pchan suddenly ignored me then out of no where his aunt sms me not to contact him o.O!?
ii wokeup after tt dream with my heart breaking fast and almost cried.
lucky it's not dearest if not i'd wakeup breaking down D:

for now mama's still in hospital,
ytd dunno part or what of her bone marrow was taken out..
dunno why also /=
everything seems like it's gonna fall apart soon ..

ii wanna see dearest lurs !! *cries*
i've been hearing "nothing's gonna change my love for you"

kabooiie peeps ! xD
ii know it's been what seems like ages since ii last updated here.
more often on 'onsugar' but think i'm gonna update both.
cos it's sooooooo much easier to load photos here especially now the toolbar is back !
WOOHOOOOOO ~

second sem have started and my gpa is 3 for now.
still not at my min target of 3.5 but ohwell ..
must JYJY !! *grins*

started clubbing again since BBmeimeii have turned 18 *xoxo*
now i'm gonna be addicted to clubbing again soon D:
&mama's in hospital since tues *sigh ~
wonder wth the docs are doing yo ! _l_
till now they cant find the real cause *wtf seriously !*

dearest isnt replying my sms ! T_T
now this is really making me paranoid !!
FREAKING PARANOID * screams ! *
fk shit !!
and it's already after 4am !!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ~

fk !!
now ii feel like drinking th rest of the dam black label *resist yo resist !!*
FK LA !
*cries*

okays, i'm going crazy here -.-