Sunday, November 30

know what ?
ii think ii shall just freaking stay single forever
arbo is become lesbian
the more ii think
the more ii cant trust guys anymore
guys make a good buddy but not a bf
as Arhbee said ~
it's best to be single !!
xD

since i'm working full time for mummy
then ii guess ii wont have to think tt much
bout having a bf or not
so guess i'd just tell cj ii wont patch cos ii wanna be single
and as for jiji
i'm very sure he's not true (=

so tt's all for now /=
today met Gab&his friends at plaza sing
then went to parklane&play dota~
freaking 'stupid ass'&'stupid dick' keep killing me =.=
*stabs*
when ii going to creep enough to buy item liaos
then come kill me *faints*

nvm
shall try to improve as time past xD

after tt they slack slack awhile then go back home,
ii went to my old hse area,
walked under my old blk and called out "MEOWIIE !! MEOWIIE!! ..."
cos ii used to have this stray maomaoo tt would run to me
whenever ii call her name
but ii know she's no more there,
but still ii hope one day she'd appear )x

ii saw the tree tt she used to climb/jump up and lay there lazily
ii really miss meowiie !! T.T
ii held back my tears as ii rmber those days ~
but now i'm crying just rmbering it all over again ..
hais~

Saturday, November 29

ii rebonded my hair !
but my hair is so fuckking short now =.=
motherfooker !!
and the hairstyle *no words could describe*
*faints*
this might be either the worst or best rebonding ever !!

but whatever ~
as long as my fringe in STRAIGHT !! *grins*

&tt jiji uhhs !!
in the end this week no more zoo =.=
so ...
should ii club sat night ?
xD

idk lurs ~
BORING !!

Wednesday, November 26

made mummy spend another 100 !! =x
know why ?
cos ii made her buy ...
*fishes x5
*crabs x6
*prawns
*MAGGIE x6
*potato chips
*dried mee sua&kuey tiao

xD

ate 1 fish&mummy steamed all 6 crabs already
LOL
prawns is for salad either tmr or the day after .
/=

&know what !?
I'M FREAKING GAINING WEIGHT AGAIN !!
*though ii havent check my weight again yet*
BUT CAN SEE LORS !!
*cries !!


**THINGS II NEED TO DO !!**
`diet !!
`rebond my hair
`get prezzies
`move my stupid table out of my room !!
`clean my room
`hurry give answer to CJ
`more dieting !!
`dieting is the most important for now !! x.X
heh ~

ii wanna eat more fishy !!
nice nice uhhs *grins*
just finished using putting face mask
i'm like gonna have a major outbreak soon !
like WTH lurs =.=
*sceeschh ~

made mummy spend like another 100 on me again today =x
to buy new lingerie's xD

hope this week can go zoo with jiji,
but still NOT confirm =.=
*stabs*
jiji's sure is taking his own time to confirm nars !!
*RARRS !!

&i'm still thinking whether to patch with Cj or not,
but the decision lies on jiji now,
if jiji's true then i wont patch
but if jiji's just playing around then i'd patch with Cj straight away.
IDK LURS !
MOTHERFOOKER STRESS !! *faints

next week rebonding hair !!
cant wait xD

Monday, November 24

today made mummy spend another 100 on more clothes+2 shoe =x
heiheii ^^
then she still got my boots&MANGOblack shoe to buy for me x.X
i'm like so making mummy BANKRUPT !!
*sorry uhhs*
but since ii started working at mummy shop,
seems more like ii making her spend money on me
rather than making me work*&still got pay leis!!*
LOL
even her business not as much as ii make her spent
but what to do ?
a girl must be pampered !! *grins*

ii cant wait to buy my boots&MANGOshoe xD
*chants:hurry hurry hurry ...*
&ii am deprived from my sleep
cos i cant seem to get away from my lappy ):

some more half month pay is only $600
still must minus CPF =.=
so maybe $500 ?
minus $98 for rebonding+treatment
$402
then christmas prezzie for my girls le !?
*especially i'm mostly going to spend more than $40 on EACH*
*maybe even reach up to 100 for each =.=*
HOLLYMOLLY !!
so how how ?
sure become bankrupt before end of month,
so i'm planning to hurry do my photo shoots
to get my extra cash xD
wahahas ~

I FREAKING NEED MORE MONEY FOR DEC !!
IT'S CHRISTMAS PERIOD !!
**IMPORTANT LORS**

*stress out&faints*
okays,
i seriously need alot of opinions from you peeps,
should ii ask my ex tt ii wont patch with him ,?
btw, i'm referring to CJ*

but i'm just too freaking confuse,
i dont wanna patch cos i want my freedom !!
if only he wasn't the obsessive type /=
&unreasonable !!

but till now he's still waiting for my answer,
he say he dont wanna find another girl already,
say till wait for my answer even till he old,
he still wait,
then told cuziie
&her reaction was dam funny okays !!
she was like "bs bs"
bs = bullshit !!
LOL

she told me guys would say&do anything
to get a girl back,
so..
now what on earth am ii suppose to do ehhs ?
mummy, korkorr, cuziie&friends dont like him,
but~
seriously ii dont know wth to do now *scratch head*

oohs !
&ii had dunno what food for breakfast,
is this white noodle thing all tgt&you eat it with orange sugar,
wayneGF got post in her blog before (x
heh ~

okay peeps,
i'm gonna prepare for work now !!

a-di-yos !!

Sunday, November 23

okays, now i'm thinking ..
should ii do photoshoots ?
tempting leis,
&the person say ii can but ii dont have faith le )x
how how ?
pls give me your opinion peeps !! )x

th-promise

i'll keep my promise to you jiji
as long as you keep yours,
sorry for those times i shouted&angry with you,
but it hurts when you do/say those hurtful things.
ii cry over the slightest things
so dont blame me if i cry.

you said i'm the first&last thing on your mind,
but is tt true ?
or is tt also a lie ?
but i still choose to believe,
believe in you.

the first time ii knew you,
you never made me angry or shout at you before,
why must it be now ?
but since you promised,
i hope it's true jiji =/

as long as you're good,
i'll be good too *
rmber all those things we said&planned since last year?
how time flies ehhs ~
from wanting to do tattoo
to hundreds&millions&infinity things

sad tt ytd night&tonight cannot hear jiji sing
then ii can slp soundly x.X
heh xD
SISI WANT HEAR JIJI SING !!
*bahhs !!

&sorry for always falling asleep first when on the phone =x
heiheii*

**AITAII**
just got back home from collecting a top from effyGF,
&it's like the top part so small lurs*the boobs part*
like machum for some xiao meimeii or pri sch kiddo ~
*sceeschh ~
thinking what to do with it now
*scratch head*

&i'm feeling more sick,
maybe from lack of sleep maybe.
i was awake for like 22hrs ytd then i sleep,
but ii only slept for like 4hrs plus =.=
who the fuckk could stand it sia !!
i wish i was younger,
mainly cos my record days for not sleeping is..

8DAYS STRAIGHT !!
power right !? xD

but not now,
cos ii got work now&it's tiring&bored OKAYS !!
*BAHHS !!

ii feel so weak,
ii need my sleep,
i want more white dresses&top,
a satin or cotton material !!
cloth is fine but must have lace pattern if so*
darn !! i'm so demanding x.X

ii wanna go clubbing soon !!
&should ii go for zoukout o.O?
idk Idk IDK !!
*screams ~~~~~

&ii went to 7eleven just now,
&ii fuckking realized tt the prices for ice creams
have MOTHERFOOKER SHOOT UP !!
*fuckking hell !!
it's like ages since ii ate ice cream,
&to see the prices going up =.=
like WTF lurs !!
*RARRS !!

&& ~
should ii get a nokia N95?
or the LG phone with 8mp ?
both got front camera but lg dun have inferred
but LG is 8mp but heard from bro's friend saying it's lag
*sigh ~

hais,
should ii sleep early today ?
or just hack care bout my health ?
idk /=

II MISS CLUBBING !
II MISS THE MAGICAL NIGHT WHERE PEARL.BBMEII
&ME DANCED IN COORDINATION WITHOUT COMMUNICATING !!

T.T

how How HOW !?
go or dun go zoukout ?
*faints*
ohs yars,
tt day met emily&qiqiMEI
went to eat at the mogumogu,
here are afew piccies xD


the ordering machine


emily's order&mine*ii only ordered side dishes


qiqiMEI's order, cute right !? xD



but hors !!
the food dam freaking motherfucker expensive lurs !!
*RARRS !!
some more the portion so small =.=



michelle.fishball&me


zhilian in dressing room


bored at home /=


using necklace as head band =x


i'm sisi, toreishii, tracyy xD



ii know ii know,
ii dam bo liao to blog some pics ~
LOL
but these are the recent updated pics yupps (=
more to come though*
i know it's alot of post for just one day,
but ii just feel like blogging though =x
heh~

later maybe meeting qiqiMEII *grins*
maybe audition for some car ad
but ain't sure yet /=
have to call&ask ~

OMFG !!
ii just realized ii need to wake up at 10
&now is already 613=.=
bloodyhellieHELL !!
*bahhs ,!
whatever~

then later in the evening meeting effyGF
cos buying a white satin top from her,
suppose to be a dress but i'm tall yea
thus it would be a top for me instead /=

&at last 1week have gone past !
1more week to go&i'm being paid by mummy !!
*chants:"mango shoe mango shoe..."*
*chants:"boots boots boots ..."*
*chants:"new phone new phone new phone ..."*
yea ~
precisely ii do have lotsa things ii wanna do with th pay.

like paying half for my new phone ii think ii might get,
buying christmas prezzie,
rebonding my hair AGAIN !
*ii rebonded my hair for 7yrs straight since pri6*
new contact lenses,
more clothes *christmas dress already bought xD*
modify new phone after ii get it,
celebrate christmas with jiji *if he's still in s'pore*
cos he said so *GRINS*
buy cute giant earphones ! x.X
modify my room..
&th list just keeps going ~
*sceeschh ,!

think my pay wont even have enough,
cos ii only work for like half month,
thus it's half pay *CRIES*
still have to minus CPF =.=
WTF lurs !!

alrights,
tt's all ii shall blog for now,
ii really need to sleep if nt i'd be a zombie-like
for my audition if i'm going *faints*

nightiieNIGHTS ppl !!
OYASUMI ! *loves*

my dreamiieland XD

ii want a dreamiieland filled with Oreo milkshake waterfalls,
candy stick trees with Lollipops,
paths made out of
chocolate wafers,
grass of gummy green lime flavor,
clouds made of candyfloss
sun made of honey balls,
houses made of
biscuits and gummies
rain of grape/apple sparkling juice,
clothes out of
strawberry flakes on donuts sewed tgt xD
wahahas ~

bird's shit of
Hershey's kisses chocs*cookies&cream*
river of different flavored milkshakes
wings of rainbow colored candy floss
lol

Saturday, November 22

guess how many freaking necklace i stringed today ?
35 freaking necklace which makes my hand so darn dry ! *bahhs !
at last got my painted skin song xD

bought dinner for korkorr after work&headed home,
came home lurs so called 'quarreled' with jiji *CRIES*
&i'm still wondering till now if he was ever true ?
idk lurs, everything seems so contridicting la !!
*BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !!
hais, dunno lurs *stabs*

someone kill me hao mahs !?
seriously tired of this fuckk up life,
I WANT TO FUCKKING DIE FROM THIS FUCKED UP WORLD ! x.X
hais ~

I WANNA GO ROUNDING !!
miss those days with
*th*GIRLS
*tackeyMUMMY&peeps
*the threesome para sisters *evanMA.pearlyeoBBMEI.me*
*clubbing kakis
*drinking kakis
*jefferyIDIOTBOY&peeps
*lincolnDIDI&peeps
*bingyin&his friends *see them play dota
*reginaJIE*she m.i.a )x
*joshKOR*long time never contact lurs*
*doverGANS
*yishunPEEPS
*batokPEEPS
*bedokPEEPS
*tamp.PEEPS
`so so many to type out uhhs ~

i miss those carefree times where i care bout NTH !
now have to work work work =.=
FUCKK MORNING LIFE !!
sibei tired de leis ,! *RARRS !!

wonder when is bingyin mummy free to cook for me XD
*grins*
her cooking really dam nice lo,
no wonder ii gained weight when i with bingyin =x
hahas, no lurs*anyhow bomb nia bout the gaining part*
heiheii ^^

i'm so darn tired !
&ii wanna go for rounding NOW NOW NOWW !!
*bahhs ,!

i miss those days with shawnKOR where he would bring whoever's with me&me
go drive around then talk talk play at west coast part
then stay over at his hse talk talk till my girls&me fell asleep on his bed
then he would sleep in the other room
hahas ~
MISS THOSE DAYS LURS !!
*cries !!

shall try to catch up with everyone asap* (=

Friday, November 21

went work early today&took cab *freaking$7.20 NBCB !!*
made a black choker of 5rows,
anyone wanna make choker tell me,
pay me&i'll get it done for you (x

wahahas ~
after work went to meet qiqiMEI&emily
found out tt emily also knew JIJI*
&told me tt jiji denied knowing me *CRIES
hais

then ate at MOGUMOGU,
freaking expensive ii tell you !
some more the portion very nbcb small lurs x.X
some more not say tt nice la !! BAKAYARO !!
but the waitress uniform dam KAWAII *kyaa ~

then headed to ps,
walked around&stopped at yoshinoya,
qiqiMEI went off first to meet her mummy~
then ii this sua ku thought she coming back *faints*
till emily told me she not coming back *pengs !!*
LOL
then emily&me talk awhile then headed home

then reached home&on my lappy go msn
&ii was darn surprised to see BINGYIN online ! xD
he's my ex btw, he went to Japan&now he's BACK !!
*weets !!*
II EFFING MISS HIS MUMMY'S COOKING ! *bigBIGgrins~~*
meet him up soon to taste his mummy's cooking again (=
SO SO DARN HAPPY LURS !!
heiheii ^^

ii rmber last time we would say meow x5
meaning "laopo wo ai ni" or "laogong wo ai ni"
cos we both love cats so we used "MEOWW ~"
LOL

now jiji is doing his work&arhbee is online like AT LAST !!
LOL
my hse phone is restored again today (=
at long last !! *though it's only 2days*
hahas

i'm still thinking to patch or not with CJ,
i like my single life now but 4mths15days is like wasted ?!
any suggestions ppl ?

but at the same time..
jiji's back to talking to me so wtf am i suppose to do now ?
lotsa Q are going through my mind ..
is jiji telling me all the truth ?
is he really true or is he just playing ?
idk if he really love me&if everything he said is all real ..
ii really dont know,
but ii dont dare to ask him ..
hais ..

someone KILL me pls !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, November 20

just got home like coming 1hr ago,
bought 5dresses *i seem to be into dresses these days*
and it's the first time mummy allowed me to buy so many,
usually she will let be buy but will never cost more than 100
today is over ,!!
hahas ~

still got 2 more shoes to go,
or should i say 3 ?
1 black shoe from MANGO , 1 normal girl shoe &1 boots *NO HEELS PLS !!*
cos i'm like TALL enough xD

had fun changing and trying on all those pile of clothes *GRINS*
&mummy bought one freaking cardigan from MANGO for like $65
&she's complaining i spend so much today =.=
hello !!
i bought 5dresses+1black stockings for $154 ALTOGETHER !!
not one piece for tt pricing ~
*bahhs !!

&the MANGO shoe ii wanna buy is $115 xD
so mummy would pay for it *evilGRINS*

as for the boots..
i wonder how much it would cost cos those tt it eyed on today cost &80+&above ~
*sceeschh ~
just hope mummy pay for it =x

&i'm gonna rebond my hair when my pay comes XD
ii wanna do so many many things la !!

Wednesday, November 19

wahahas ~

&i'm craving for lollies again x.X


just finished playing dota with korkorr again xD
since ytd korkorr&me have been going back home after work
to play dota tgt =x

mummy's shop is a real BORE !
string string stringy pearls all day long =.=
some more have to wake up early&i ain't a morning person *dammit*
also not say the pay high also,
only 1200 per month then after -CPF then dunno how much lurs *faints*
feel like telling mummy i work mon-fri nia then sat and sun ii can go out for all i want xD
*wonders if mummy allow* /=
hais ~

&i'm going out with jiji next week *hopefully he doesnt mia last min*
hahas ~
but ain't sure going zoo or night safari or go for muffins or movies /=
Zz ~
cos i'm only free either after 6pm or on sundays ,!!
*bahhs ,!

life is sickening !
ii want more new clothes !!
*anyone wanna sponser money to my bank ? =x
heh ~

&i'm thinking of cj the whole day ..
but ii still ain't sure ..
to patch or not to patch /=
*stabs*

Tuesday, November 18

lotsa things happened recently,

*broke up with CJ again*&i think this is final*
*jiji is talking to me again*&we really talk alot&planned alot*
*recently meeting up with qiqiMEI;michFISHYBALL&the rest
*working at mommy's shop now
*mommy found a ipod&now i'm using it xD
*i'm trying to continue life without him*though i do think back everytime*

*LIFE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME*

i do miss him&think of him everyday when i wake up.
i think of him everytime i do things.
but guess it's better this way,
we could both break free from this lies of love at last,
&i could finally take a breather..
BUT !
i really do miss those times with him,
though there are lotsa quarrels but there's also sweet lil moments /=

oh well ~
ii really guess i need sometime off to myself to think through everything,
if we keep on breaking&patching it's also not a solution /=
hais ~

jiji's nice&sweet but ii dont know when he's true&when he's not*but he sure can whine* =x

arhBee is impossible cos him&me are just 'brother&sister' kinda thing to him*&i use to love him secretly for 2yrs+*

Cj, idk.. i love him still but i really dont know !! *so pls dont ask*









lately i've been on the phone with either ArhBee or Jiji.
for ArhBee he would fall asleep first,
as for Jiji i'd fall asleep first*ps uhhs*

mommy's shop is BORING !!
&i had to listen to music the whole day if not i swear i'd DIE of BORDOM !!
cold place where your skin just dries up,
boring and quiet place, like WHO THE HELL can stand it !?

wish i could turn back time,
undo everything tt ii regret..
wish things would never turn out this way ..

Saturday, November 15

THURS;FRI

THURSDAY*
sent dearest to doverMRT before heading to pasir risMRT
slept at the chalet cos we didnt have anything to do,
coughed while i slept till i bui tahan,
then want to go out take warm water
i opened the door&i saw dearest just at the doorstep !!
coincidence or just plain lucky ?

then took water then lad back on the bed to rest,
dearest left at 6 cos he got chanting =.=
sent him to mrt then came back to the chalet,

&FINALLY AhBee reached !!
*jumping up&down and happily all over inside me*
it's like ages since i saw him ! xD
talked&as always he makes me smile&laugh like never before (=
we got bored&went to play pool at Ehub
his skills for pool is still there though he said tt he didnt play for like 1 yr !?
then walked back&he bought a double cheese burger (=

stayed at the chalet for not more than 20mins&we left again,
now is to the 'red house' xD
walking there seems to take FOREVER ~
but with someone like him there it's always worth it =x
we both were trying to figure out how to climb in
cos there were barbwire all around&finally found a way in (=
he being the usual caring guy i've known for years
was like worried i'd get scratch or fall *sweet right ?* xD

thus we proceed to climbing over
me first then he pass me his bike helmet then his turn to climb in
it's a disappointment for me
cos this is the first time i went to a haunted hse expecting something grand
like 2-3 stories with an attic but it's just some ground lvl run down place
with lotsa spider webbies ! *BAHHS ! ~
but still it's fun though xD
&tt's the first time ever tt he&i took a pic tgt *though it isn't nice /=*
then climbed out,
climbing out was more complicated but he helped me (=
&thus we're on our way back to chalet
while joking&talking like last time *grins*

not long after we reached,
i saw dearest walking to us =.=
with a freaking angry&fuckk up face to be precise
got qiqimei to pretend tt AhBee's someone else *sorry uhhs ~*
arbo i think her chalet going to have showdown x.X
heh ~
lazy type bout the rest of the day lurs..


FRIDAY*
lazy type leis
*another type okays ? very tired*
xD











HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HANNAH.MEIMEII *

TUES;WED

i know i know..
i havent been blogging for like erm ..
coming 1week ?
heh =x

TUESDAY*
met qiqiMEI&stayed over at her hse,
she came my hse first&helped me pack my stuffs
cos after tuesday is chalet ~
then i took like 2hrs+ to prepare everything x.X
heh ~
then after tt went jurong point meet zen too,
bought pmk shirt *first time le ,!*
then played arcade and slack around&talked while eating
&finally 10 reached cos we also waiting for qiqiMEI's friend just to meet for awhile .
then cabbed to her hse from there !
know how 'chor' mahs !?

then at her hse do facial =x
LOL


WEDNESDAY*
went out of qiqiMEI hse at 8+am to eat breakfast,
then headed to hougang mall cos she was supposed to pull out a tooth
but in the end didnt so took cab back to her hse,
then i was like sleeping again at her hse xD
dam tired lurs !! )=
then 1+ to 2+ she was helping me do my face,
then prepared then wait for her aunt to prepare
&cabbed to downtown east xD

there we waited to check in,
then unpack our stuffs&waited for ppl to come,
so qiqiMEI&me went to walked around first (=
1group came lurs*sorry, lazy type down all the names*
then zen keep calling to ask bout what to buy x.X
end up so ex sia !!
then ii left at 9 to go find dearest

but guess what !?
when i reached he didnt talk to me all the way for 1hr+ ?
he opened the door then i went to his room put down my bag
then he just came in&tell me "go out to the living room !"
then i go lo, then he at kitchen talk to his father for dunno how long lo !
then nvm leis !
talk liaos still dun want talk to me,
just fuckking SLAM the door leis !
then after like 2-3mins he came out take drink into his room
&guess what !?
he fuckking SLAM the door again but LOCK it too this time,
so i'm like left there in the living room like some fuckking idiot !?
HELLO !! WHY THE HELL I COME ALL THE WAY FROM D.T.E FOR !?

Saturday, November 8

'sorry' to you&'fuckk you' to him

Fri*
met dear first but ended up late by 30mins ?
&he was complaining he waited for 1hr + just cos he reached at 230pm,
HELLO !
did we even set a timing to meet !?
you reached there early how the FUCKK am i suppose to know !?
then i reached and called you using public phone,
then you said you from cathay walking to mrt,
before tt you shouted at me !?
FUCKK YOU LA !

is it my want tt there is a freaking major traffic jam !?
i left the bloody hse at 215,
so is it my want tt the fuckking bus came at 230 instead !?
how the fuckk am i suppose to know you reached so darn fuckking early ehhs !?

&when you walked to the mrt i went to the traffic light for just 5mins,
&i can see both possible ways tt you might walked dumbarse !
then making a fuckking scene at the mrt and the toilet !?
till the security guard almost called the police if it werent for me begging him !

cos of you i cant fuckking find my baobeimeii at jurong at 6pm !
&when i fuckking told you few days beforehand tt I AM&I WANT TO MEET HER&MY GIRLS !
FUCKK YOU!
now see what you've done !?
HAPPY NOW !

MY OWN FUCKKING PRECIOUS GIRLS WHOM I DONT GET TO MEET AS MUCH AS I MEET YOU,
YOU ALSO DONT LET ME FUCKKING GO MEET THEM !
IS THAT FUCKKING FAIR !

ESPECIALLY WHEN NOW MY BAOBEIIMEII IS PISSED,
WHAT THE FUCKK COULD I DO !?
NOTHING !
FUCKK YOU&YOUR OBSESSION TO TIE ME UP BY YOUR SIDE !
I WANT MY FUCKKING TIME WITH MY GIRLS !!

THEY ARE ALSO PART OF MY FUCKKING LIFE !

so how now !?
happy now !?
making my bbMEII be alone at jurong east mrt ytd !
making me have to sms her cos of YOUR FUCKKING UNREASONABLE THINKING !!





to pearlYEO.bbMEIMEII*

i'm sorry for ytd&everything,
i didn't mean to leave you alone there for 1 hr then tell you i couldn't make it,
hate me or dispise me if you want,
but i just have no freedom like last time anymore to meet you,
even when i freaking told him beforehand i'm meeting you&the others,

but on tt day,
lotsa quarrels&when i told him "also not like you cannot follow"
he said "but i dont want to see your girls"
i just wanna go tt point in time,
but he told me he havent finish talking ,
he told me he want me 24/7 by his side,
i told him i want to meet my girls !
he said "tt's what you want but i dont want and i want to watch movie with you today"
i told him&tried to reason with him but i cant.

i'm sorry for everything,
i didnt expect everything to turn out this way,
i know you were dam pissed off ytd,
but i just couldnt do anything,
sorry for being a useless sister .
but i truely didnt mean to ..

sorry *

Wednesday, November 5

left one more paper for O's /=
which is next monday *P.O.A*
sure DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ,!
YES, I DO MEAN SURE DIE DIE DIE ,!!!!!

i wanna slim down,
i wanna find job,
i wanna shop without worrying bout money,
i wanna eat everything tt i want,
i wanna have a fridge in my room so tt i can put all my snacks in there !!
xD

my phone sim card is broken peeps,
so till i get a new number,
try contacting me through msn or on my taggy board alrighto ?

how i wish i know what i want in life,
i quit sec5 when i could take my O'lvl then,
but instead i chose to quit and go ite&take digital animation,
&when i wanna go to 2nd year,
i quit ite&took private O's =.=
&even then i ain't studying at all /=

now just finished chatting online with deardearr,
he stress then like ma chum everything i do or say also wrong ,
everything i say also add on to his stress,
then might as well i shut the fuck up what !
wth !
i stress also never tell him to NOT say anything else to make me more stress la !
HELLO !
when you tell me you stress i tell you listen classical you say dont like ,
then i tell you sentimental you say dont like then wtf can i do !?
sentimental you got listen before and classical too !
then you say you now dun want then my fault ah !?
wtf !

i rubbish isit !?
stress then vent everything on me !
want be like my old friend uhhs,
stress then vent on me, happy then treat me good .
hais ,
nvm .
everything wrong is this world also my fault ma .

FUCKK THIS WORLD LA !
FUCKK THIS LIFE LA !
FUCKK EVERYTHING !

Monday, November 3

THURSDAY*

cj came my hse first till evening,
evening went to west mall meet wayneGF
cos i kinda gt a craving for "LongJohnSilver's CornSoup" xD
&cj was suppose to celebrate belated b'dea with me,
but he forgot he gt chanting so let him go bahs ~

at west mall with wayneGF*been sucha long time since i saw her&all the other girls too*
walked and see snacks snacks to munch on*but more like i'm the one /=*
wayneGF went off around 8+
then i went to buy black color hair dye cos precisely i miss my black hair x.X
heiheii ^^

then went to eat dinner by myself ,
quarreled with cj cos of my stupid phone problem *fuckk up de lors !*
bought dove shampoo&conditioner at my hse ntuc,
went home&dyed my hair xD
*love my black hair lurs !!!*



FRIDAY*
cj came my hse again,
supposed to go back sch for extra last min business lessons but quarreled,
so didnt go sch in the end ,
walked home all the way then cj came to find me,
walked back to holland V to find things eat .
after everything quarreled again cos of some fuckk up thing,
then i just broke my sim card *how fuckked up is tt !?*
then everything okay again after like 12+ ?

SAT*
met cj at aljunied mrt,
was late by 15 mins =x
went to eat bak kut teh then went to his chanting place,
chanting was HARD !!!!!!!!!!!
was precisely perspiring till my perspire drips down lurs ! =.=
&it was like only 10mins and i almost couldn't walk ,
the way they sit while chanting is really aching for the ankle,
&it's seriously pain !

after tt went to eat ice kachang nearby,
then took bus and played dota for god knows how many hours uhhs !
LOL

then go home lurs,
&i think he didnt notice tt it was our forth month =.=

SUNDAY*
suppose to do my art at cj hse,
but slept all the way instead and watched anime xD