okays ~
benedictSIS came to find me at the clinic after ii saw doc =.=
the fuckking doc gave me an injection lurs !! T.T
cried in the room cos yea i'm fuckking scared of needles.
actually he asked me do operation but ii chose anti-biotic first
cos ii got SOY later.

benSIS accompanied me home&waited for me to prepare finish
then took cabby to ngee ann poly
met jeannette !! xD
so freaking miss her lurs !!!!!!!!!!! *forgot to take photos* =.=
but jeannette needa leave early.

so then saw takuyaKOR too xD
saw the singing contest&i'm so darn attracted to th guy in red hair !!
dam hell cool lurs !! O_O
*grins*
after the contest benSIS left so ii followed takuyaKOR [=

then walked around letting ppl take photos of me /=
*i'm still finding all my photos !!*
hahas ~

after tt went to lot1&took neoprint with takuyaKOR&his friend.
then ii cabbed home.

first time eating such big medicines lurs !! =.=
precisely is cos ii never knew how to eat tablet med *dont look at me tt way*
is korkorr help me put the tablet into my mouth de ~
then korkorr took a photo of the swell *wth ~*

when mummy came home,
guess wtf she said tt almost made me feel like just dying !?
she said doc called her after ii left .
saying tt if it continues,
my brain would soon be damage and then i'd die !!
FUCKK SHIIT !!
he also said i'm too stress out and still push myself to do things
even when my body is already at the limit.
so ..
WOW !! i'm so gonna fuckking be dead if ii continue being like this *emotionless*

wokayy !!
so i'm like gonna be going for operation on monday =.="
FUCKK !!
OPERATION LEIS !!
kaos !!! *tears building up, gonna start crying again soon, hopefully not*
i've never been to an operation before lurs ,!
&if ii would cry cos of an injection then operation..
ii think ii would run and kill myself halfway !! /=

okays, guess what !?
i'm thinking bout monday op so much tt now i'm freaking hell crying T.T
*WEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHS !!*
ii feel like running away now !!
but ron.dearest keep telling me must learn to face reality !! )x
OH YARS !! ron.dearest is BACK !! YEA ~~~~~~~~~ XD

alrights,
better stop typing for now cos it's gonna be 12 soon.
&i'd have to be a good alien and go sleep /=





OYASUMI MINA !! ^^
*huggies*

okays ~
guess what !?
II FREAKING HELL SPEND $388 TODAY !!
power right ? =x
bought a freaking belt for $106 cos it's customize xD
bought one white Victorian like top for $40 something
bought one black top and bottom for $61 *clubbing wear*
then withdrew out $110 for the repair of my bass&sheesha
then another $42.30 on taxi fare =.="

now my bank is left with ehhs ..
$608 =.=
but lucky would have another $200 on sunday after photoshoots xD
sibei heng uhhs !!

today met up with qiqiMEI, kimberly&dawn*my sch sec mate*
met at fareast first then ate at Hans.
cabbed to parklane to collect my bass&continued to haji lane for sheesha
sheesha till 12 then cabbed home

I MISS RON.dearest !! )x
SHIIT !!
hais ~
dunno lurs ..
T.T

&S.O.Y is in a few hrs time !! {x
&ron would be coming back too ~
YEA ~
hees ^^

&ii better stop spending like nobody's business =.=
the whole day i've been 'sua-ing' my nets lurs ~
shitty hell !!
LOL

okays ~
gonna go wash up and do face mask then go orhorhh lo ~
wahahas xD

let's see .
next sat jiji's fetching me from work
then go airport *dont look at me, continue reading* xD
jiji wanna buy the elmo there&other stuffs ii guess ~
then we're gonna go eat popeye *which would be my first time*
then after tt swensen's ice cream *it's been years~*
*yea ~
then sky train *never sit before leis /=

lalalas ~

then next sun would be zoo with ron.dearest ~
LOL

next week's gonna be a nice good week {x
lalalas ~

fuckk shiit !
ii cant sleep anymore =.="
fuckking hell mumsie gave me a sudden wake up cos my music was too loud *FUCKK!
after tt the freaking mump's pain is coming back slowly
making it difficult for me to sleep making me wake up in the end
cos of the fuckking intolerant pain T.T
the pain is all coming back now !!
SHIT !!
&II BLOODY HELL GOT S.O.Y in 1+ days more *stabs*

ii wonder if ron.dearest sleeping now /=
hope he is, heh ~
yet ii hope now could be sat and he'd be coming back already x.X
*sceeschh ~

i've been thinking through the whole night.
firstly, it's impossible tt ron.dearest would ever be with me
thus ii must refrain myself from thinking of him too much
secondly, ii cannot continue anymore with someone ii know clearly tt my feelings isn't there anymore but yet ..
how sure am ii with my own feelings ,?
third, ii need a bf who could give me all the attention&sweet enough lik ron.dearest
thus Gab is definetly out *sorry dearBoy*
but ii wonder how to tell him all these ~
or maybe ..
ii wont ?
idk lurs .
SHIT!

i'm so used to single life tt idk wtf is love anymore lurs !!
Zz ~




ii think ii sld list down things on why ii should end this r/s:
`lack of communication

`he cld NEVER think of surprises

`there's nth to do when it's just both of us

`i'm like a PET following his friends&him along everytime ii meet them

`he never thinks how his words actually cld hurt me at times*&he'll never know*

`he has too much friends around him

`he has too much girl friends knowing him *i dont mind but it pissed me everytime we had to stop walking cos of his lil girls suddenly seeing him and having a chat EVERYTIME*

`he's NOT a good kisser x.X

`he calls me when he cld use the phone before lights off and wld always ask me to hang on for
more than half of the time knowing very well ii dont have incoming calls !!

`he always smokes infront of me knowing tt ii HATE it !!

`he ISN'T tt gentlement /=

`i'm more of the bf than a gf when i'm with him

`he thinks highly of his singing =.=" *ii bet ii can find a better one so stop going on and on bout
how you sound like jay chou !!*

`he'd suddenly 'scold' me when ii sit on the bloody floor when he knows how fucking tired ii am*WTF !*

`having a 'prefect' bf isn't so prefect afterall ~

`th way he sms sometimes is sucha TURN OFF !!


NOW,
to list things tt is more positive maybe :
`we never even quarrel once in this 1mth+

`finally ii got a bf tt is taller =.="

`he's a decent guy

`he's faithful*ii think*

ii cant think of anymore X.X




&NOW for reasons ii sld REFRAIN from continueing falling for ron.dearest:
`he'd surely NOT like me back or even have any feelings

`ii think i'm too tall for him*ii think he should mind lo*

`he doesnt call me dear as much as the previous days but ..
he's calling me in reality when we're out so aiyars !! dunno if this's a reason or not lurs /=

`bet he still love his ex

`he'd definetly want someone hotter and shorter than him for his gf

&ii cant think of anymore for now /=



BUT II CAN'T STOP THINKING OF DEAREST !!
*CRIES*

dam !!
ii really got myself into a mess ehhs /=
hais ~

i'm rotting the whole bloody day !!
ron.dearest went to bintan !! =.="
&ii have a feeling he doesn't have auto roam *CRIES*

at last ii finished stringing 174 necklaces !! *faints*
hope the money comes in tmr then it'd be SHOPPING SPREE !!
xD

espcially ii still need to pay another 73.50 for everything related to my bass =.="
fuckk !!
&it's so freaking hell weird not to have any sms while working !!!!!!!!!!!!
so used to sms-ing dearest during work lurs !!
&now he this ..
busy cheeky evil lil sweet forgetful caring silly tootiie blur piggiie dearest funny human!!
go to bintan&suppose he dont have auto roam cos there's not a single sms from him !!
THE WHOLE BLOODY DAY !!!!!!!!
*takes out chopper&awaits the day he'd reach back singapore*
muahahahahas ~

&my mind is so darn confuse now ..
all my mind cld think of now is dearest&not dearBoy !!
hais ~
shittiie hell !!
how the fuckk did ii get myself into this mess !?
/=

but FUCKK LA !!
ii just miss dearest alot lurs tt's all ii know =.=
okays..
stop staring at me tt way ..
ii know ii know !!
ii should be faithful right !?
but it's just like tt ~
hais ..

ii shall blog before ii go sleep
though i'm suppose to sleep like dunno how long ago =x
hahas ~

my head's heavy all the way during work
due to lack of sleep !! =.="
then after work cabbed home with mumsie
took my bass and rushed out of the hse&cabbed down to parklane
to fix my bass&buy stuffs for my bass.
total i'd be seeing $100 + fly away x.x

then rushed to bugis to meet ron.dearest&his friend
went to eat first then headed to his sis's sheesha shop at haji lane
sheesha, drank corona and played 5,10,15&dai di xD
then ii this blur toot keep saying wrong number like 11, 12, 18 =.="
then they laughed like siao lors !!
seriously SIAO !!
hahas ~
dam funny to see the way they laughed XD
it's a real fun night (=
ohs !!
&ii was like more than 30mins late AGAIN !! =.="
Zz ~

actually all planned to stay till 9+ or 10 de
then become 10+
then in the end we forgot bout the time and the next thing we know it's 11 !!
LOL

so walked back to bugis
bought drinks at 7eleven
then went to bugis arcade cos the guys need toilet =.="
ii was looking at the machine to pick soft toys de
and ii was so attracted to this particular soft toy
ron.dearest saw me kept looking at it and standing there
then he actually went to change money and tried to catch it for me lurs !!
but all the attempts failed )x
actually can de lors, but when the thing pick up then go all the way to the top,
then the soft toy dropped lurs T.T
but thanks anyway for trying to get for me xD
still as sweet and silly as ever ~
hees ^^

then they send me off first.

talked on the phone with dearBoy on the way home on the bus.
when reached my bus stop.
saw BENEDICT SISTER !!
*it's a guy okays !! just tt ii call him sister then he call me brother*
hahas ~
saw him with shaun kor too and mashall*is a girl*
then after tt sister walked me home dispite tt his foot is hurt.
aww ~
sweet sister as ever XD
LOL

and here ii am gonna go turn in for the night now (=
so ..

NIGHTIIE NIGHTS PEEPS !! xD

stayed at home the whole day,
fell asleep while sms-ing ron.dearest *sorry ii kept falling asleep*
almost didnt wake up in time to prepare to meet him.
talked to dearBoy before ii started preparing.

but luckily ii did ! xD
cabbed to bugis cos i'm late again*as usual* =x
met him at 730 +
didnt know where to go so in the end walked to marina
&ate our dinner at Jack's Place *my second time going in my whole life*
ii only ate less than half of the portion lurs =.="
cos it still hurts&he paid for everything !! *faints*
he's always paying for me lurs ~
Zz ..

then went to see what movie to watch and there isn't much
thus we took mrt and went to cathay ~
watched 'The Wedding Game'
this time ii pay if not i'm gonna feel so bad !
at Jack's Place the bill was 40 ++ lurs !!
Zz~

we had 1hr + before the show thus ..
went to gramophone&ii bought another modern classic cd xD
yes yes ii know, i've been buying these nowadays /=
but no choice, it just attracts me ALOT !!
hahas ~

then went to Starbucks to drink&slack
till it was time then went up.
&ii this tootiie toot as usual was so blur ii took out my old tix
instead of our tix =.="
hahas ~

show wasn't bad at all {x
&ii cried *Zz ~*
then ron.dearest was like looking at me then pat my head =.=
*i'm not a cat though ii know you say ii sound like one*
Zz ~

after tt ..
walked all the way to esplanade cos no where to go ..
then we're at underneath the highway ii think.
then ii was like trying to get to the top and see the road
and guess what ?
ii slide all the way down then fell .
he couldnt stop the lil friction then ii almost cried =.="
then slack there awhile and run there&here lil some kiddo till it's too darn hot.

so next destination ~
walked to boat quay .
LOL
at the river there one of the statue there sit down and listen music
and singing and talking.
then ii this toot started emo-ing and thinking of papa =.="
Zz ~

went back at 4am by cabby .
and as usual he's tt sweet evil cheeky silly forgetful lil human
tt always sees me off first (=
LOL

and there goes part of my ang bao money x.X










*sorry dearBoy tt ii didnt pick up your call,
was in the cinema tt time*

ohs !!
&ii got a new dearest .
LOL
&tt person is ..
*drumroll please ~*
and presenting my new dearest..
non other then RON*TH EVIL SWEET HUMAN !!
LOL

why he's my new dearest leis,
cos he started calling me dear,
&pls dont mistaken ppl !!
Gabz still my dearBoy{x

ron's calling me dear for shortform for HIS DEAREST LIL ALIEN TURTLE!
LOL
then he say call me dear more sweet arbo how to become
my sweet lil evil human .
Zz ~

such excuse also he can think of =.="
power siol !!

ARGHH !
i'm bored ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
lalalas ~

cant wait for sat !!
S.O.Y !!
YES !! FINALLY IT'S COMING !! XD
woots ,! ~

gonna go repair my bass on wed which is the day i'm going back to work =.="
but now i'm thinking..
HOW THE HELL AM II SUPPOSE TO CARRY MY BASS !?
ii just realized ii threw away my bass carrier =.="
fuck Fuck FUCK !!
Zz ~
unless ii buy a bass bag first then fix =.="
then like this ii need to travel twice !!
Zz ~

it'll be weird if ii just carry the bass around itself right ?
Zz ~
how how how !?
nbcb !!
why the hell ii so blur =.="
*ARGHH !! ~
bloody hellie !!
*stabs*

and i'm thinking if ii should send my bass to..
let them carve out dragon&phoenix on it.
like dam nice lurs !! xD
but it's gonna cost HUNDREDS to do it /=
hrmm ~
any ideas ppl ,?

needa practice harder;
strive higher for the band !! xD
we're gonna make it {x

jamming practice session with the band is FUN FUN FUN !!
xD
woohoo !!
can't wait for next sunday for our next jamming session {x
wahahaas ~
but played till my fingers pain =.="

it's like 1yr + since ii touched bass lurs !!
Zz ~
&it feels so great to play it again xD

&ii just finished my reunion dinner ~
fast ehhs ,?
LOL

ytd end work at 230 pm
then went home to change my phone batt,
met sebas korkorr at tiong mrt then headed towards bugis
then around 5 we headed to taka meet korkor's friend
then bout 5+ coming 6 headed to cine to meet TBStwin;TBSlaopo {x
zen was there too ~

at 6+ coming to 7 headed to fareast with the whole group to meet my band.
TBStwin;TBSlaopo went walk walk first while waiting for me,
then korkorr followed me to meet the band.
listened to the 3 songs and the chords&discussed my bassline .

dearBoy reached and met TBS first {x
went to find them around 8+
went to mogumogu to eat.
then korkorr left at 9

then TBS left so left dearBoy&me xD
walked to cine cos dearBoy wanna eat {x
then walked to istana park there and listen music and look through my scores .
around 12plus headed to bus stop and lucky my last 14 bus came !
and ii was in the nick of time !!
*phewws ~

reached home and put songs into my ipod and update everything .
practiced the songs till 540am then went to sleep ~
LOL

lucky mummy didnt make me follow her to market,
if not i'd be a walking zombie lil alien turtle when ii meet the band up at clarke quay =.="
lalalas ~

overall,
ii really enjoyed jamming with them all !! xD
they're friendly and funny !! =x
but they speak chinese so whenever they say things ii dont understand,
like "li bai" *meaning sunday* ii was like ...
HUH !? WHAT'S LI BAI TIAN ?
then they all laugh !! =.=
LOL
but yea ~
FUN FUN FUN !!
&ii want more More MORE jamming sessions !!
^______________________________________^













*TARGETS FOR THIS CNY*
`for the band to be able to perform by this year
`improve my bass
`lose another 6-8kg *ii gained back 2kg =.=*
`get into ite in any course tt ii opted
`more photoshoots
`get the laptop tt ii want tt cost $3599 =.="
`find a nice flip phone with camera !! xD
`modify my whole room
`get bloodred of black curtains for my bed
`more gothic lolita stuffs
`more pay !! =x
`more high society modern classical cds
`have my hair dyed to charcoal black !! *yes, i miss my freaking black hair!!*
`more cats/turtle/rabbit/skull/moon/star stuffs /=
*ii cant think of anymore for now*
hahas ~

*wakaranai*

okays !!
how nice lors next sunday =.="
need to rush to 3 places ~
first is get up in th morning and rush for jamming session.
12-2
then rush to botanic garden for photoshoots
230-430
then rush to bugis to meet ron for sheesha at his sis shop
5-late late late at night ~

Zz ~
lucky ii dont need to bring precious bass around xD
wahahahas ~

tmr dearBoy's gonna book out !!
yea !! xD

then sat gonna meet up my band members to discuss my bassline
then meet qiqimei cos she's gonna pass me dress o.O
then meet dearBoy cos it's out first mth xD

wahahas ~
suddenly life's so darn busy =.="
feel like quitting the job at mumsie's shop /=

dunno lurs,
suddenly life is so darn busy on weekend tt i'm thinking ..
can ii really cope all these new things ,?
hrmm ~

nvm, shall not think bout this now~
let one day by one day pass as it is {x
&ii miss dearBoy freaking much !!

been passing my time fast by sms-ing ron
from when ii wake up till we sleep =.="
i'm so gonna make his bill BURST !! XD
wahahas ~
*evilGRINS*

&guess dearBoy's bill also gonna BAO ZHA !!
LOL
=x

how ii wish everything was prefect*

update update !! xD

FRI*
met up with qiqiMEI at clementi to apply for JAE
marcus was there too ~
then headed to dar east to meet emilyLAOPO&her bf
which he knows me..
he's junx.AHO classmate !! *faints*
bought a dress for $44.90 =.="
BLOODY HELL !!
SO FUCKKING EX *stabs myself*

then later pearlBBMEIMEII met up with us xD
ate at mogumogu .
then headed to meet the rest of the girls at JP {x
ate taiwan noodles *it's nice okays !!*
heiheii ^^

walked around and crapped around ~
&& JP sure have changed alot !! O_O
didnt get to walk the whole place so maybe soon {x
headed back home with sebasKOR via mrt ~





SAT*
met up with dearBoy&his friends at heeren.
went there with zenzen cos he saw me while ii was walking there {x
then went cine and took neoprints with dearBoy too ! xD
wahahhaas ~
^^
then qiqiMEI reached lurs {x
zenzen&me team up and made qiqiMEI confuse =x
*oops ~
then zenzen went off ..
slacked outside cine ..

then dearBoy and me went to walked around paragon .
then headed to clarke quay .
sweet lil memories xD
met up with boyer&2 others to drink ~
drink drank but NOT drunk !!
xD
though i'm high and ii vomitted once ii got out of the pub =.="
didnt eat any dinner and vomitted all water out ~
*bahhs !!

dearBoy send me home by taxi again ~
&talked on the phone till 6+ in the morning x.X
hahas ~

SUN*
stayed home =.="
so nth to update for today ~

MON*
went to eat sashimi with mumsie after work
then headed to bugis to meet ron {x
nice/evil human !! =x
wahahas ~

went to eat *ii ate dessert*
then crapped there till they closed so headed to starbucks next
*thanks for paying for me*
{x
*sorry dearBoy tt ii didnt talk much* )x

then continue crapping till again ..
starbucks close =.="
so went to sit outside ajisan&continued xD
LOL
till 12 + then went to the bus stop to check my last bus ~
&it has passed already =.="

so went to find a taxi with nets ~
*thanks for waiting for me to get on first before going*
*&thanks for offering to pay for my cabbie but nahs ~*
hahas

precisely it's really an enjoyable day lurs {x

*TUES
nth much =.="
went work ~
came home and cook to prepare for cny /=
watched tv&rot !!
LOL
&here ii am updating everything {x

dont' say you're a failure
cos i love you *

GUESS WHAT !?
I'VE LOST 4KG SINCE II GOT MUMPS !!
yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ~
*round of applause for myself*
okays, ii know i'm kinda crazy now =x
wahahahas ~

but just tt this the first tt i've lost so much in just 1week1day ?
LOL
being in the heavy bone catogary, it's hard for me to lose weight tt easily.
but YEA !!
at long last *GRINS*

4 more kgs to go {x
=x

&ii just realized something !!
WHERE DID WAYNE.GF'S BLOG GO TO !?
T.T

okays ~
gonna update when i'm back home cos ii needa rush to meet qiqiMEI now ~
*if my bro doesnt hook up the lappy with maple again tt is*
=.="

&TMR FINALLY II COULD SEE DEARBOY AGAIN !!
xD
^______________________________^
*loves x33

let us stay this way nw&forever alrights ?

i'm rotting at home the whole freaking day already !
been occupying myself th whole day by..
playing facebook =.="

oohs ohhs !
&dearBoy called me using his friend's phone ! xD
SUPER HAPPY OKAYS !!
ii thought ii wouldn't get to hear his voice before bed )x
but NO ! ii get to hear his voice but it was so darn short !!
all thanks to mumsie ! =.="
she put dunno what medication on the pain&told me ii cant talk !!
FUCKK !

but at least last night ii didnt get up as many times as th nights before,
think cos the medication helps to numb it {x
finally !!
SLEEP AFTER LIKE DUNNO HOW MANY DAYS !!
wOOts ~

&tmr i'd have to go back to mummy's shop =.="
dam it !!
ii still wanna slack ~
=x
i'm so darn bored now !!
&ii miss my dearBoy )x

i'm thinking on whether to go back to ite or not leis /=
should ii ?
ii have to apply by this fri 4 pm !!
Zz ~
shitty hell =.="

idk what ii wanna do leis ..
beauty terapy ?
hair fashion&design ?
pastry&baking ?
calinary *western* ?
or back to my digital animation ?
Zz ~

ii wish ii wish with all my heart ..
to have him here and never part*

met dearBoy finally when ii end work,
almost couldn't go find him when he book out lurs
&ii cried in the room )x
then finally mummy let me go xD

didnt have the energy to walk to fareast at my usual speed,
ii swear i'm walking even slower than any grandma lurs !!
totally no energy to walk but had to force myself to cos ii wanna see dearBoy !!
waited for him at 7-11 there,
&when he reached ..
ONE WHOLE FREAKING BIG GROUP !! *faints*
&ii thought i'd only me him and me ~
but nvm {x
as long as he's there ~

walked around&didnt talk much either,
cos it still freaking hurts T.T
slacked around,
then around 10+ walked to cine,
they wanted to watch movie,
ii wanted to follow but back out at the last min
cos it's just too painful )x
bus-ed back home ~

couldn't sleep properly either !!
fuckking hell =.="
ii cant lie down to sleep cos it hurts too darn much ,!
T.T
turned&turned but no use ..
finally at 3+ am sms deardearr&asked him if he's still outside or what,
&he's back home !! XD
called him&tried my best to talk to him {x
let him go orhorhh first cos can hear through the phone tt he's falling asleep .
stared blankly at my room and finally ii fell asleep !!
but only slept for 2hrs+ before ii woke up from the pain again =.="
FUCKK !!

so went to the living room and watched OKTO xD
dearBoy was awake by tt time too {x
dam surprised lurs cos ii thought he'd be sleeping till afternoon ~
mummy also dam cleaver ..
buy lor mee for me =.="
ii can't even put the bloody fork into my mouth lurs !!
so ate like 2-3 mouth&tt's it !!
ii ain't eating anymore of it ..

waited for mummy to go work then went to prepare ,
went to simei to find dearBoy cos he's booking in on tt day *which is sunday*
walked around EP with his friends ,
then slack at the blks there ~

boyer went up to change first cos he's booking in too but earlier ~
LOL
then see them acting like sir and recruit !!
dam funny lurs !!
but cant laugh tt much cos it hurts more tt day )x
then boyer went off lurs,
now is dearBoy's turn to go home&prepare ~
LOL

the uniform these days ahh ..
C.M.I la !! x.X
from far still alright but near tt time ..
seriously nth to say ~
=x

fell asleep while waiting for dearBoy to prepare ~
&ii wonder who the hell made the rule tt..
army ppl cant kiss, hug or even hold their gf's hand when they're in their uniforms !!
*BAHHS !!
unfair lurs ,! *grr ~
but ii'm in for the rule tt they cant smoke in their uniforms !! xD
wahahas ~

sent dearBoy off at tanan merah ~
dam depressing lurs,
just imagine ..
your bf is infront of you going to book in&yet you cant bloody hell even hold his hands !!
Zz ~
II WANT TO COMPLAIN !!
*better not though, wait ganna sue* =x
hahas ~

&now's monday !!
pain is still getting worst =.="
FUCKK LA !
&dearBoy ganna rp for 3 days !!
WTF !!
tt means ii wont hear anything from him till thursday night ,!
T.T
just cos of some stupid thing =.="
NBCB RULES !!
at least let him use for 1 min ii also happy lo !!
*points middle finger*

so guess i'd be turning in early for tonight *if ii can even fall asleep*
=.="
&ii freaking miss him la !! )x
*CRIES*

&ii just wanna be with him..
now&forever ..
can ii ?

freaking hell,
ii woke up this morning to find out the back of my cheekbone
hurts like fuckking hell !! =.="
ii cant talk much,
even if ii dont move my mouth,
it still freaking hurts !!!!!!
NBCB !! *okays ii know i'm being so darn fierce for nth* xD

tmr Tmr TMR !!
dearBoy's booking out at last {x

hrmm ~
&to think tt day at alice88 ..
ii maybe saw his ex ..
making my mind think lotsa things since then ..
idk lurs ~
FUCKKING BRAIN ALWAYS THINK USELESS THINGS !!
*bahhs !!*
but ii cant help it..
there's just too many unanswered questions but yet ..
ii dont wanna know any truth to it /=

i'm home after work ..
too tired to even walk to Mango with mummy =.=
almost had a fuckking bus accident,
nbcb car !!
and also almost had a fuckking taxi accident in the morning !!
NBCB VAN !!
some more suddenly cut in TWICE !!
NBCB ! CURSE YOUR WHOLE FUCKKING FAMILY LA !!!!
CUT ONCE WITHOUT WARNING STILL NOT ENOUGH,
MUST CUT TWICE AH !?
MOTHER FOOKER MAGGOT !!
GO FUCKK SPIDER LA !!
*yaya ~ today's a bad day !!*
*stabs*
*eerie classical music plays in the background with a hidden laughter every few seconds*

hahas ~
ii freaking miss dearBoy !!
*girls&gans, dont worry ii miss you all too okays*
^^

now i'm wondering how i'm gonna survive the rest of the mth with like ..
$170 in my bank /=
shitty hell !!







to qiqiMEI: you think too much lurs nars meimeii,
i'm just meaning get someone else to go out with you..
cos ii really too tired, sorry if you misunderstand yea ~
dont think so much lurs silly girl {x *huggs*

ii wish ii wont think so much,
but ii cant control the other me*

Wed*
dearBoy book into camp again )x
sat then book out again =.="
*bahhs ~

after work went bugis meet takuya/dansonKOR {x
walked to alice88 & guess what !?
ii freaking spend $160 there *faints*
now my bank left only $170 =.="
&it's only like 1+ week of January *stabs*
fuckk sia !!
&i'm gonna spend ii think around 100+ to 200+ at alice88 next mth
cos doing some customize cloths&stuffs xD
suddenly so into japan stuffs again *OMG LA*

then after tt we walked to clarke quay *yes,WALK !!*
wanted to see Asuki have what but sadly it's closed by tt time.
then guess the next part ..
we walked back to bugis cos kor wanna check out CatsA
but closed by the time we reached ..
so ..........
we walked to parklane there de soy bean ~
sit there & korkorr told me lotsa stories and stuffs O.O

then walked to the bus stop,
while walking dearBoy called !! xD
but sadly ii was still with korkorr tt time so we put down the phone very soon )x
talked at the bus stop till korkorr's last bus came,
then my turn {x
by tt time dearBoy fell asleep lurs T.T
gonna meet takuya/dansonKOR the next time when it's S.O.Y =D
then maybe then,
there might be pictures taken ^^

Thurs*
didnt go out,
went straight home instead,
played ps2 till ii almost fell asleep then went to living room and watched tv
for like 30mins ?
then off the tv and here ii am blogging&waiting for dearBoy's call {x
after tmr then sat dearBoy book out lurs !! xD
YEA-NESS !!

how ii wish ii control the time,
then ii wldn't have to wait to see him *

after work went to find dearBoy&his bunkmates
at luckyplaza de pool ~
heiheii ^^

at last can see him lurs !!
*ii know it's only been one day tt ii didnt see him okays*
/=
but ii miss him la ,!
*bahhs ~

deardearr shave number 1 xD
heiheii ~
dam nice to touch lurs =x
wahahahas ~

now talking to deardearr on the phone,
guess he going to sleep soon bahs ..
/=

ii left 24more days to haunt for my maid's shoe !!
dam hell =.="

&fuckking O lvl results is coming out next week ,!
FUCKK FUCKK FUCKK !
SURE DIE LIAOS !
CB !
why must come out so soon =.="
hais ~

&ii freaking miss dearBoy )x
ii want his huggies now !! x.X
*bahhs ,!

sometimes ii just cant help feeling scared..
scared tt he'd leave one day ~

PICTURE TIME xD

ii was precisely rotting on new year's day itself )x
didnt get to meet dearBoy tt day either T.T
&he booked in at night ~

fri started work again,
met qiqiMEI&thunder at mogumogu,
then altogether got 3 other guys came&join in too ~
one of which is Nicholas which is actually know who ii am,
he was from my ex ite sch o.O!
DAM ! i'm popular ! xD
hahas ~
no lurs, just cos ii wear differently from the rest tt all,
&ii always carry jack jack around {x

then went to cine and played arcade,
then go amk slack .
cabbed home.

Sat met dearBoy after my work
&went to marina Cafe Cartel to eat xD
wanted to watch movie but the timings and all is so not going to our time,
walked to suntec city,
found out Asuki isn't there anymore,
went to the sky garden and slacked there{x
send dearBoy off to the mrt then walked back to suntec & took bus home.

Sun went to simei cos going Auntie Muriel's hse ,
having lunch buffet and all she cook !! O.O
food was nice as always xD
after tt cabbed to simei,
saw JEREMY.SILLYBOY !! ^^
hahas !
some more sunday is just the day after ii gt back his number ,! (=
played around with the cameras there while waiting for dearBoy =x
then sillyboy got break lurs then he go smoke first
which was when ii saw dearBoy coming AT LAST ! =D
parted with sillyboy.

went to cathay and watched 'transporter3'
then went to park lane around there see dearBoy eat chicken rice,
then we went to eat soy bean curd {x
then walked to bugis street,
was trying to find my shoe for my lolita maid's costume,
cant find it )x
was so pek cek lurs ~

send dearBoy back to simei,
slacked awhile with his friend then took cab to bedok and took bus 14 home.

talked on the phone till 5+ am to dearBoy.
*can i put my trust in you boy ,? are you really true ,?*

Monday which is today ..
suppose to go out with takuyaKOR but in the end he cldn't make it )x
was darn moody the whole day.

precisely ii thought ii could meet up with dearBoy today but NO !
he's meeting his friends,
dont wanna bother him so guess ii kept everything inside
and am starting to hate myself all over again !!
hais ~

each time ii miss him and ii know his outside enjoying with his friends,
ii seriously feel like crying ..
ii feel like dying ..
feel like just disappearing till the time ii cld see him again ..
bet he doesnt feel this way ..

cos when ii love a person ..
i'll always love him more than he does ~
i'm trying my best to keep everything to myself ..
i'm trying my best not to do fuckking silly things..
but each time ii miss him..
only one thing comes into my mind ..
suicidal ............
i fuckking miss him !!
but ii cant possibably tell him all this ,!

he'll feel guilty right ?
thus all ii cld do is act alright ,
it's hurting to hide the truth of how much ii wanna see him NOW !
but ii have to hold the truth back ..
why the fuckk am ii even crying now !?
SHIIT !
hais ..

think ii shall start making an imaginary friend,
then ii cld tell tt 'friend' whatever i'm feeling ~
*kinda crazy ehhs ?*
hais ..

he'll never understand ..
how much an alien like me would love him ..

this pain ..
ii wish it'd go away ~
II FREAKING MISS HIM LA !!
hais ..

death pls take me away now wont you ?
soon ii wont be able to endure the pain anymore ..

taken before going work on the eve of new year's eve. LOL




this is how my room looks like now xD




Hangry&Angry xD



Just some pics taken during new year eve {x




this is what i'm gonna wear for S.O.Y 2009 xD
it's on the 31Jan *at Ngee Ann poly*

new year eve was fun overall .
met qiqiMEI at DGmrt first.
then went to ps de kopitiam find dearBoy&his friends {x
meimeii&ii bought fruits to eat which cost $10.60 =.="
fruits leis !! how the hell did it add up to so much !?
*bahhs !
nvm ~

then dearBoy&his friends went to dunno where first,
cos of some reasons meimeii&me stayed at the kopitiam talking .
then they came back after awhile saying they going cityhall lurs.
so went off to cityhall ~
*sorry dearBoy if ii left you out* )x
met Glady's at the mrt there (=
sweet lil girl xD
went to marina to find mich.fishyball/laobu & hq~
LOL

later dearBoy's friends went off to play pool so ..
dearBoy, qiqiMEI, mich.fishyball/laobu&gladys plus me
went walking around,
then went outside burgerking cos meimeii meeting her friend for awhile there
i'm like precisely dam sleepy tt time cos of the effect of the medication =.="
bloodyhelliie ~
x.X

after tt dearBoy's friends came to find us lurs .
we girls went to the toilet to camwhore first =x
then gladys went off to town ~
then thus, later meimeii&fishyball/laobu went off to find HQ
while ii stick with dearBoy&his friends {=

went to downtown east ~
it's darn happening there lurs !!
hahas

after midnight countdown to new year ~
then spray spray and fake snow everywhere !!!!!!!!!!!! *faints*
after tt went into the club..
so many ppl lurs !!
not really a club though but they used the bigbig tent there ~
LOL
then got shuffle battle !!
woohoo ~
dam nice lurs *KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ! ~

then slack awhile more then took cab home .
&IT'S FUCKKING EXPENSIVE LURS!
FUCKKING 34 GONE FROM MY WALLET !!
i'm so NOT going to take taxi home when i'm like the other end of s'pore =.="
nbcb!!

&ii cant wait for S.O.Y !!
xD

&lastly ..
I EEFING MISS DEARBOY LOTSA LOTSA !!
T.T

&here ii am thinking..
he's gonna book in again in afew more hrs )x