it's all over between us.
ii knew something wasn't right the second ii saw you .
it just proved my suspicion when you avoided the questions.

so wow ..
nice one rensen !
2words for you ..
FUCKK OFF !!
never have ii love&hate someone so much at the same time.
ii thought you were diff..
you even told me you aint like the others.
but you proved yourself wrong,
and me right.

why the hell did ii trust you in the first place ?
FUCKK LA !
forget it ..
you dont even have the guts to continue using tagged
just cos i'm now considered as your ex..
bet i'm the shortest ex right !?
_l_

thanks&sorry for everything .

okays ~
now got time to have a fast update lurs
before ii start spamming maple for korkorr x.x
from just green flower&adrian having my number,
now jitao spread to the rest x.x
*BAHHS !!

thanks botak, green flower&adrian for your concern
thanks green flower&botak for sms-ing
to find out more on the reasons {x
sorry if ii caused the group to worry x.x

&at last ii got all the books *sibei heavy lors* -.-
and ii also got my face masks now !! xD
yea yea ~

&today deardearr's gonna be booking outttttttttttttt !! ^^v
hees ~
but i'm broke yet again cos forgot to ask money from mummy ytd /=
i'm always broke on fri cos i'm always forgetting to ask money from mumsie x.x
sceeschh ~

ytd*fri*
was 1hr late for lesson thanks to kenneth -.-
botak, adrian &me have to wait for him at woodlands mrt for coming 30mins ,!
green flower was waiting for us at yishun bus interchange ~
then they still can go smoke first before going class *faints*

went to work out at gym for sw
&ii didnt bring my shorts so ii just work out with my pe shirt&own skirt
LOL

they smoked again after sch then train-ed home
went swimming with fuliangKOR&zijiaKOR soon after ii reached home
wanted to sleep but in the end,
prepared and headed to toh guan road to find JunHao&friends
after their soccer ~
slacked till 11 then headed home {x

okays ~
end here for now..
&i'm falling ill T.T
&ii miss deardearr lotsa !! *CRIESSSSSSSSSS*

but somehow ..
something tells me something in my heart ..
i'm not secure

for now i'm just gonna upload the photos from wayneGF's blog yupps.
ii needa rush to prepare go swimming !!
LOL

first of ~
my scar x.x
still looks raw ehhs /=


wayneGF took this&it's nice xD


*right-left: wayneGF; pearlBBMEI; me*


*left - right; wayneGF, pearlBBMEII, me*


*right-left: pearlBBMEII, me, wayneGF*

wayneGF&me {x


the normal to 'dirty' advertisement for our 1.5L bottle water* =x


lalalas ~



*muackmuackks* x33





wayneGF- blueberry crumble pie
me - apple crumble pie
from HANS ^^

at last green flower came to sch today
didnt have my music with me today as my ipod hang =.=
thus ii was reading book otw to school x.x
then while walking from yishun mrt to the bus interchange,
ii was reading then suddenly ZOOMMM ~ goes my book !
ii was like HUH !!?!!
guess what !?
green flower took it -.-
LOL
idiot him !

teacher was LATE !!
*rarrs !*
went toilet without anything and guess what happen when ii came back ?
unknown number calling me -.-
had a strong feeling it's green flower .
called back dunno how many times but no answer,
then ii sms-ed saying,"erm, who are you,? &why you call ,?"
then the person replied,"guess who am i! You are my angel"
-.-
then ii replied,"how i know who are you !?"
then bo reply lurs ~

break time ii tried calling again,
then green flower was acting like machum he calling someone
*ii aint dumb lors*
so when we reached at the coffeeshop
&let them buy their food first,
ii asked botak to lend me his phone and dialed the number
&I WAS RIGHT !! xD
it's TEO JING HUA'S NUMBER !!
LOL
ganna busted liaos ^^v
*bleaghh ~

now the group has gone up from 3main ppl to main ppl
only 2other guys&me dont smoke,
the other 3 kukus smoke smoke smoke -.-
hahas, but fun lurs XD

after sch adrian&green flower followed me to find wayneGF {x
then met pearlBBMEIMEII soon after,
both smallboy was dying to smoke la -.-
idiots !
LOL
so let them go smoke lors thus went to mac,
then they sit outside while we girls sit inside.

then green flower msged me say they go lurs ~
LOL
then next was adrian -.-
wth ~
soon my number sure pass around liaos *curses*

then walked around then went to amk
ate at MOSburger then went to under the mrt track there
talking bout girls stuffs among ourselves xD
lalalas ~

then walked around amk&slack then headed home {x
hees

having to come home to an empty hse after sch,
it somehow makes your whole heart empty too ~
it's always like this since young,
tt's why ii always would stick to my bro when he's home,
but he's always having his own friends.

now back in ite again,
going to sch&dressing differently from others,
ii guess ii give others the aura of 'get away from me'
&that's when ii was surprised when green flower even started talking to me,
ii thought i'd just be a loner again,
but no ~
i'm surrounded by guys who try to click with me.
who bothered to ask me where i'm going after sch,
even just striking up a conversation shows alot {x
this post would never be known to them,
but i'm just typing for the sake of acknowledging them
&thanking them ~

yes ii admit ii like the attention x.x
well, at least enjoy it in sch cos back home..
i'd just be facing my own bedroom walls,
listening to high society classical music&reading book ~
so now,
each day ii look forward for the next day of sch
as that's the only place of happiness for me now
*girls, you're included but this post is bout my ite so yupps^^
my happiness is also with you all kies*
*LOVES*

mummy's feeling down,
&ii know the whole thing even though she told me only part of it,
cos ..
ii went to read her diary =x
sorry but mummy's diary is the only diary tt ii read in my life
cos as a mother, she wont tell her children much right ?
so since the diary is there on her table,
so i just took it and read ..
but yet ii think ~
why do i read when i could do nth..

life's complications could never be solve..

sch's not as interesting as green flower hasn't come to sch for 2 days.
&ii wonder wth did he told smallboy&botak -.-
on mon they suddenly say,"ehhs ~ your bf not here today le"
ii was like HUH !?!?
then ii pointed to jackjack then said,
"na ! jackjack's my bf ! xD"
hahas
&they said the same thing today again -.-
when class was going to end for the day,
green flower msged one of them asking me if ii miss him *faints*
ii gave tt kinda WTH look back to them after reading the sms -.-
Zz ~

ytd went to michBF's hse again,
wayneGF came along after awhile {x
headed to sunshine plaza*ii think tt's the name of the building right ?*
hahas ~
made Lovelle's library card ^^
then bought snacks !! xD
wahahahahas ~
gf was trying to make me not spend too much x.x
heh ~
then went to the playground first then headed back to bf's hse {x
watched channel8 show till 10 then played some puzzle quest
&headed home soon after.
XD

today after sch met with qiqiMEI&zenzen soon joined after tt,
just walked around&idk for fuckk my stomach hurt like hell !!
meimeii was pissed off with zenzen&me and she went off first,
then zenzen and me walked to mrt and parted there
sinced ii taking bus mahs x.x
walking is already torturing enough,
i felt like just letting myself faint right there,
but i cant ~
i'm much too far away from my own hse,
and come on ! alien's aint tt weak x.x
but ii did feel blurry all the way ..
luckily the bus came just when ii reached the bus stop ^^
it's still hurting but not as bad as before /=

deardearr seems so busy at camp
and ii thought they'd at least give 15-30mins time for them to use phone
ohwells ~
tt's why ii say CANNOT put 100% in..
&ii have other reasons for tt too /=
gf, bf, bbmeimeii&meimeii knows ~
is it just be being paranoid or is it really true ?
idk, only you know it yourself best ya ..

hope green flower would be in sch tmr,
ii rather get disturbed by him rather than small boy -.-
small boy's disturbing is really ..
making me feel like going into depression or either killing him !!
*grr ~
the matured thinking one would be botak !!
the rest of the class ppl ..
mostly c.m.i with their childish ways -.-
not all but most ~

ytd was fun connecting back at bf's hse *mich*
^^v
yutingMyLady&wayneGf came first
then followed by pearlBBmeimeii {x
but by the time BBmeimeii reached,
wayneGF left lurs )x

Lovelle's grown so sooooooo big sinced the last time ii saw her xD
michBF's hair is sooooooo long already lurs x.x
tt makes my hair length the shortest .OMG !!
it's fun talking&connecting back with each other ^^
majong was fun too with yutingMyLady, kel.korkorr&his friend xD
ii lose like dunno what la -.-
Zz ~

to all 3 of you *
let's meet up as often alrights ?
i'm most probably be popping by to find mich weekly
or either once in 2 weeks sinced she's just 1 stop from my sch {x
so when i'm going again i'd update you all alrights ?
&hope by the next time we'd all have more time with each other.

rmber the times we used to have meeting every sat at cine ?
those were the crazy times we have which only consists of only us
the times where we weren't tt busy to put time off for a gathering
we dont even need to plan but just automatically would be there xD
hahas ~

those carefree days ii know might not be possible
but NOT impossible as long as we put in the effort ya ?
ii aint good with words but yea ~
ii think you all should understand ^^
hees *grins*
so ..
i'm looking forward to our next meetup..
&ii hope you all do too {x

woots !
at last got lappy to update my blog.
first day of sch was miserable till ii cried.
but after tt i'm happy with sch life {x

now i'm always with a group which consists of ..
green flower, botak, smallboy & me LOL
hahas
all guys x.x
it started with green flower disturbing me,
then botak&small boy is follow him de,
then green flower now is always follow me
arbo is he ask me go out with them or what.
hahas
he reminds me so much of my macpherson ite sillyboy !! xD
nice ppl but they sure know how to disturb me -.-
nbcb !! *grr ~
but they're fun to be with lurs ^^v
yea ~

school's fun now with them around {x
then today got one more guy come in..
he's like the only guy tt seems so beng-ish la x.x
next week start lesson lo ~
&it'll be 9+ more days till deardearr could book out of camp *GRINS*
lalalas~

kies lurs, stop here for now..
lazy type lurs x.x
&wont be logging in much as my lappy ganna rain water )x

now deardearr should be at tekong le.
&i'm crying not cos i miss him
but cos he havent msg me !! T.T
ii sms-ed him to tell me when he wakes up but nth at all .
ii purposely stayed awake till 6+ am to see if he's msg me,
but NOOOOOOOOOOO !!
nth at all ...
i'm disappointed/ sad& super paranoid now x.x

ytd night was a nice night of meeting up with pearlBBMEII&yutingMyLady
^^v
talked bout lotsa stuffs&targeted for something 2yrs time {x
love them to bits la !!! XD
missed our train x.x
so we all took different bus to somewhere near our hses.
but MyLady's bus was gone )x
BBmeimeii ii think she took to somewhere nearer to take taxi.
ii took the bus to opposite clementi bus station and walked home.
&bloody korkorr's kfc's drink leaked x.x


when ii reached home,
deardearr told me he going sleep lurs )x
then korkorr ask me spam maple for 1hr /=
deardearr's sent me an sms..
first time saying nites without any of the dear word
neither did he state love you.
it suddenly becomes so weird from tt moment he msg me tt..
&it just feels more weird when he didnt msg me ..
hais ~

then around 2+ reginA.IREN sms-ed me,
was going to bath tt time,
so hurried to bath then called her,
talked with her till 5:50 something then her phone died lurs.
hees ~

then continued to stay awake to see if deardearr wld sms me,
but no ..
soon ii fell asleep around 630+
&guess ii forgot to off my music then my phone died too
so didnt get to call dan zi wake up x.x
woke up at 11+
sigh ~

gonna wake airen up at 230 then prepare go bugis,
pei her to the temple there to pray {x
wed meeting her to go club,
would be just the 2 of us
&so far we planned to go to 3clubs tt night,
attica would be last for dancing,
arena&the one tt took over mos would be the first 2
if possible we'd be going as many clubs cos why ?
to drink our hearts out T.T
yes ..
we are tt emo yet high now ..
&it's ladies night so it's free ~~~~~~~~~~
then gonna ton at the bridge there then take first bus/train home
hais ..

shit la!!
i'm starting to get paranoid !! T.T
hais ..

i miss him.
aitai.

when he isnt by my side

deardearr's gonna serve army soon )x
so ..
how am ii suppose to cope with the 2weeks
where he wont be here,
where i wont be able to see or hug him .
these few days i'm mostly with him tt now ..
ii just suddenly feel so idk ..
kaos !

why must s'pore have army for so long -.-
why !?
some more not like he can talk to me whole night this time round /=
ii sware ii sure at home emo like F*** de lors,
some more ii no laptop x.x

no deardearr to see..
no deardearr to talk to till either one of us sleep..
no deardearr to go out with ..
no deardearr to hug with ..
no deardearr to disturb ..
no deardearr to find ..
during this WHOLE 2 HELLY BORING WEEKS !!
F*** LAAAAAAA !!
TMD !!

why must all guys go army )x
nbcb !!
*RARRS !