sorry for being so late x.x
didnt expect him to be same height as me lurs *GROWLS ~
but nvm, better mahs this way XD
&thanks for topping up my card x.x
took mrt to yishun then go yishun ite
cos ii needa apply for ite -.-"
so far lurs but bo bian,
cant waste anymore time .
now just need to settle finding a job x.x
then went cine find qiqiMEI&terrence
deardearr&me went to 4th lvl get movie tix first,
went to arcade to find&hug mummy*gan* xD
then went back to find deardearr ^^v
went to pasta mania to eat,
sorry for wasting so much time too before you cld eat x.x
then went toilet&took photos with qiqiMEI {x
photos would be up asap when meimeii update her blog ~
then parted with qiqiMEI&terrence,
thus we proceeded to 3rd lvl to just hmm .. rot ?
LOL
then went to 6th lvl for our movie 'unborn'
the ending is like erm .. wth -.-"
hahas
after movie went to heeren,
deardearr bought a polo tee there {x
then headed to far east plaza
then he bought 1short pants&1pants/jeans
the material dam nice lurs !! xD
then walk around,
nth to do then walked to taka ~
dumbdumb super suaku la !! =x
*bleaghh ~
ii thought tt there wont be anyone tt doesnt eat ToriQ !!
but ii was proven wrong by dumbdumb @.@
he dam cute la !!
buy once then go back buy again ^^v
hees ~
then hear dumbdumb talk talk till taka off light lo ~~~~~~~~
then walked to my bus stop FA DAI !! x.x
took 111 instead cos ii purposely wanna walk a longer distance home slowly /=
idk lurs, just felt down but idk why .
&my feet is hurting like OMFG la -.-
reached home then nbcb mumsie ask where ii go,
then ii tell her go yishun apply for ite lors,
then she started nagging at me say study for what la !
then ii fuckking sibei dulan then ii just replied her,
"WHAT LA !! I PAY ALSO NOT YOU PAY YOU COMPLAIN WHAT LA !"
then dunno wtf she mumbling liaos _l_
knnbccb !!
fuckking hell spoil mood .! -.-_l_
dumbdumb deardearr*
thanks for everything,
sorry for not being able to say anything
when you tell me your problems.
sorry for not being able to say out
those words you wanna hear.
if i seem emo,
dont worry cos i aint.
if i do anything wrong,
tell me cos i'm blur bout everything.
i wont promise not to do anything stupid,
but i'll try.
dont bother so much bout what
i'm typing now.
cos my mind's in a mess&idk why either x.x
*d.a.i.s.u.k.i.d.a.y.o*
thanks for everything,
sorry for not being able to say anything
when you tell me your problems.
sorry for not being able to say out
those words you wanna hear.
if i seem emo,
dont worry cos i aint.
if i do anything wrong,
tell me cos i'm blur bout everything.
i wont promise not to do anything stupid,
but i'll try.
dont bother so much bout what
i'm typing now.
cos my mind's in a mess&idk why either x.x
*d.a.i.s.u.k.i.d.a.y.o*
i'm gonna leave this hse asap
what for i go out and enjoy&thinking everything's okay
when in the end when everything seems fine,
then BOOMMMM !! it's not -.-
everything is my fault,
everything is me Me MEEEEEE !!
korkorr didn't even finish his SIM or poly or the other private sch
&you did not nag&say he wasted your money !!
when ii just change to MDIS to take private O's
¬ studying in the end then you tell me ii waste you money.
so now i'm applying for ITE
&i'm fuckking hell paying everything myself
&here you still want to complain what FUCKK !?
nbcb !!
sinced young i'm always to blame for anything wrong,
i'm supposed to learn your tread in business,
learn then slowly take over.
then what about MY INTEREST !?
did you hear bout what i wanted so much to do ?
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !!
just cos i'm a girl&the youngest,
does tt mean ii have to take over you !?
does tt mean ii have to be blamed for everything !?
maybe ii really am just a jinx tt shouldn't exist in the first place then.
seriously ..
maybe ii really am a JINX !
when i'm born not long,
papa left this family.
when ii go to pri1, grandpa died.
when ii go to sec1, one of my uncle died
when ii go to first yr in macpherson ite, mummy's life detolerated
when ii go to MDIS, mummy's business detolerated
now this is the yr i'm going back to ITE,
&mummy lended in hospital cos of me.
well..
what more !?
why did only korkorr know bout the whole family thing
&ii know NUTS BOUT ANYTHING !?
to think tt korkorr's the one tt made me knew everything.
infact, i still cant believe this whole family is ..
this COMPLICATED !!
to think tt the lady tt used to work for you
is actually my older step sister,
&the korkorr ii always cant wait to see when young
is actually my older step brother.
to think tt the younger boy ii saw when papa came back to s'pore
is actually my younger step brother
then yrs later there's a younger step sister !!
like WTF !!
sometimes ..
ii hated papa for being this hong ..
but yet ii love papa to hate him..
but each time ii see poh heng outlets ..
it reminds me of everything ~
the secrets tt is kept from me.
why !?
why the fuck must i be born to this world ?
why must i be so stress over this thing again now ?
ii know it's not for me to be affected by it.
but somehow ..
it does .
it hurts ..
why am i still living ?
idk what's keeping me alive ..
why am i crying ?
idk either ..
papa use to pick up korkorr or my calls ..
but now ~
he doesnt do tt anymore ..
papa..
mama..
korkorr..
who am i ?
somehow i feel tt i really dont belong to this family.
is there a deeper darker secret tt idk ?
......
what for i go out and enjoy&thinking everything's okay
when in the end when everything seems fine,
then BOOMMMM !! it's not -.-
everything is my fault,
everything is me Me MEEEEEE !!
korkorr didn't even finish his SIM or poly or the other private sch
&you did not nag&say he wasted your money !!
when ii just change to MDIS to take private O's
¬ studying in the end then you tell me ii waste you money.
so now i'm applying for ITE
&i'm fuckking hell paying everything myself
&here you still want to complain what FUCKK !?
nbcb !!
sinced young i'm always to blame for anything wrong,
i'm supposed to learn your tread in business,
learn then slowly take over.
then what about MY INTEREST !?
did you hear bout what i wanted so much to do ?
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !!
just cos i'm a girl&the youngest,
does tt mean ii have to take over you !?
does tt mean ii have to be blamed for everything !?
maybe ii really am just a jinx tt shouldn't exist in the first place then.
seriously ..
maybe ii really am a JINX !
when i'm born not long,
papa left this family.
when ii go to pri1, grandpa died.
when ii go to sec1, one of my uncle died
when ii go to first yr in macpherson ite, mummy's life detolerated
when ii go to MDIS, mummy's business detolerated
now this is the yr i'm going back to ITE,
&mummy lended in hospital cos of me.
well..
what more !?
why did only korkorr know bout the whole family thing
&ii know NUTS BOUT ANYTHING !?
to think tt korkorr's the one tt made me knew everything.
infact, i still cant believe this whole family is ..
this COMPLICATED !!
to think tt the lady tt used to work for you
is actually my older step sister,
&the korkorr ii always cant wait to see when young
is actually my older step brother.
to think tt the younger boy ii saw when papa came back to s'pore
is actually my younger step brother
then yrs later there's a younger step sister !!
like WTF !!
sometimes ..
ii hated papa for being this hong ..
but yet ii love papa to hate him..
but each time ii see poh heng outlets ..
it reminds me of everything ~
the secrets tt is kept from me.
why !?
why the fuck must i be born to this world ?
why must i be so stress over this thing again now ?
ii know it's not for me to be affected by it.
but somehow ..
it does .
it hurts ..
why am i still living ?
idk what's keeping me alive ..
why am i crying ?
idk either ..
papa use to pick up korkorr or my calls ..
but now ~
he doesnt do tt anymore ..
papa..
mama..
korkorr..
who am i ?
somehow i feel tt i really dont belong to this family.
is there a deeper darker secret tt idk ?
......
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