*

ii was precisely rotting on new year's day itself )x
didnt get to meet dearBoy tt day either T.T
&he booked in at night ~

fri started work again,
met qiqiMEI&thunder at mogumogu,
then altogether got 3 other guys came&join in too ~
one of which is Nicholas which is actually know who ii am,
he was from my ex ite sch o.O!
DAM ! i'm popular ! xD
hahas ~
no lurs, just cos ii wear differently from the rest tt all,
&ii always carry jack jack around {x

then went to cine and played arcade,
then go amk slack .
cabbed home.

Sat met dearBoy after my work
&went to marina Cafe Cartel to eat xD
wanted to watch movie but the timings and all is so not going to our time,
walked to suntec city,
found out Asuki isn't there anymore,
went to the sky garden and slacked there{x
send dearBoy off to the mrt then walked back to suntec & took bus home.

Sun went to simei cos going Auntie Muriel's hse ,
having lunch buffet and all she cook !! O.O
food was nice as always xD
after tt cabbed to simei,
saw JEREMY.SILLYBOY !! ^^
hahas !
some more sunday is just the day after ii gt back his number ,! (=
played around with the cameras there while waiting for dearBoy =x
then sillyboy got break lurs then he go smoke first
which was when ii saw dearBoy coming AT LAST ! =D
parted with sillyboy.

went to cathay and watched 'transporter3'
then went to park lane around there see dearBoy eat chicken rice,
then we went to eat soy bean curd {x
then walked to bugis street,
was trying to find my shoe for my lolita maid's costume,
cant find it )x
was so pek cek lurs ~

send dearBoy back to simei,
slacked awhile with his friend then took cab to bedok and took bus 14 home.

talked on the phone till 5+ am to dearBoy.
*can i put my trust in you boy ,? are you really true ,?*

Monday which is today ..
suppose to go out with takuyaKOR but in the end he cldn't make it )x
was darn moody the whole day.

precisely ii thought ii could meet up with dearBoy today but NO !
he's meeting his friends,
dont wanna bother him so guess ii kept everything inside
and am starting to hate myself all over again !!
hais ~

each time ii miss him and ii know his outside enjoying with his friends,
ii seriously feel like crying ..
ii feel like dying ..
feel like just disappearing till the time ii cld see him again ..
bet he doesnt feel this way ..

cos when ii love a person ..
i'll always love him more than he does ~
i'm trying my best to keep everything to myself ..
i'm trying my best not to do fuckking silly things..
but each time ii miss him..
only one thing comes into my mind ..
suicidal ............
i fuckking miss him !!
but ii cant possibably tell him all this ,!

he'll feel guilty right ?
thus all ii cld do is act alright ,
it's hurting to hide the truth of how much ii wanna see him NOW !
but ii have to hold the truth back ..
why the fuckk am ii even crying now !?
SHIIT !
hais ..

think ii shall start making an imaginary friend,
then ii cld tell tt 'friend' whatever i'm feeling ~
*kinda crazy ehhs ?*
hais ..

he'll never understand ..
how much an alien like me would love him ..

this pain ..
ii wish it'd go away ~
II FREAKING MISS HIM LA !!
hais ..

death pls take me away now wont you ?
soon ii wont be able to endure the pain anymore ..