*

fuckk shiit !
ii cant sleep anymore =.="
fuckking hell mumsie gave me a sudden wake up cos my music was too loud *FUCKK!
after tt the freaking mump's pain is coming back slowly
making it difficult for me to sleep making me wake up in the end
cos of the fuckking intolerant pain T.T
the pain is all coming back now !!
SHIT !!
&II BLOODY HELL GOT S.O.Y in 1+ days more *stabs*

ii wonder if ron.dearest sleeping now /=
hope he is, heh ~
yet ii hope now could be sat and he'd be coming back already x.X
*sceeschh ~

i've been thinking through the whole night.
firstly, it's impossible tt ron.dearest would ever be with me
thus ii must refrain myself from thinking of him too much
secondly, ii cannot continue anymore with someone ii know clearly tt my feelings isn't there anymore but yet ..
how sure am ii with my own feelings ,?
third, ii need a bf who could give me all the attention&sweet enough lik ron.dearest
thus Gab is definetly out *sorry dearBoy*
but ii wonder how to tell him all these ~
or maybe ..
ii wont ?
idk lurs .
SHIT!

i'm so used to single life tt idk wtf is love anymore lurs !!
Zz ~




ii think ii sld list down things on why ii should end this r/s:
`lack of communication

`he cld NEVER think of surprises

`there's nth to do when it's just both of us

`i'm like a PET following his friends&him along everytime ii meet them

`he never thinks how his words actually cld hurt me at times*&he'll never know*

`he has too much friends around him

`he has too much girl friends knowing him *i dont mind but it pissed me everytime we had to stop walking cos of his lil girls suddenly seeing him and having a chat EVERYTIME*

`he's NOT a good kisser x.X

`he calls me when he cld use the phone before lights off and wld always ask me to hang on for
more than half of the time knowing very well ii dont have incoming calls !!

`he always smokes infront of me knowing tt ii HATE it !!

`he ISN'T tt gentlement /=

`i'm more of the bf than a gf when i'm with him

`he thinks highly of his singing =.=" *ii bet ii can find a better one so stop going on and on bout
how you sound like jay chou !!*

`he'd suddenly 'scold' me when ii sit on the bloody floor when he knows how fucking tired ii am*WTF !*

`having a 'prefect' bf isn't so prefect afterall ~

`th way he sms sometimes is sucha TURN OFF !!


NOW,
to list things tt is more positive maybe :
`we never even quarrel once in this 1mth+

`finally ii got a bf tt is taller =.="

`he's a decent guy

`he's faithful*ii think*

ii cant think of anymore X.X




&NOW for reasons ii sld REFRAIN from continueing falling for ron.dearest:
`he'd surely NOT like me back or even have any feelings

`ii think i'm too tall for him*ii think he should mind lo*

`he doesnt call me dear as much as the previous days but ..
he's calling me in reality when we're out so aiyars !! dunno if this's a reason or not lurs /=

`bet he still love his ex

`he'd definetly want someone hotter and shorter than him for his gf

&ii cant think of anymore for now /=



BUT II CAN'T STOP THINKING OF DEAREST !!
*CRIES*

dam !!
ii really got myself into a mess ehhs /=
hais ~