okays ~
benedictSIS came to find me at the clinic after ii saw doc =.=
the fuckking doc gave me an injection lurs !! T.T
cried in the room cos yea i'm fuckking scared of needles.
actually he asked me do operation but ii chose anti-biotic first
cos ii got SOY later.

benSIS accompanied me home&waited for me to prepare finish
then took cabby to ngee ann poly
met jeannette !! xD
so freaking miss her lurs !!!!!!!!!!! *forgot to take photos* =.=
but jeannette needa leave early.

so then saw takuyaKOR too xD
saw the singing contest&i'm so darn attracted to th guy in red hair !!
dam hell cool lurs !! O_O
*grins*
after the contest benSIS left so ii followed takuyaKOR [=

then walked around letting ppl take photos of me /=
*i'm still finding all my photos !!*
hahas ~

after tt went to lot1&took neoprint with takuyaKOR&his friend.
then ii cabbed home.

first time eating such big medicines lurs !! =.=
precisely is cos ii never knew how to eat tablet med *dont look at me tt way*
is korkorr help me put the tablet into my mouth de ~
then korkorr took a photo of the swell *wth ~*

when mummy came home,
guess wtf she said tt almost made me feel like just dying !?
she said doc called her after ii left .
saying tt if it continues,
my brain would soon be damage and then i'd die !!
FUCKK SHIIT !!
he also said i'm too stress out and still push myself to do things
even when my body is already at the limit.
so ..
WOW !! i'm so gonna fuckking be dead if ii continue being like this *emotionless*

wokayy !!
so i'm like gonna be going for operation on monday =.="
FUCKK !!
OPERATION LEIS !!
kaos !!! *tears building up, gonna start crying again soon, hopefully not*
i've never been to an operation before lurs ,!
&if ii would cry cos of an injection then operation..
ii think ii would run and kill myself halfway !! /=

okays, guess what !?
i'm thinking bout monday op so much tt now i'm freaking hell crying T.T
*WEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHS !!*
ii feel like running away now !!
but ron.dearest keep telling me must learn to face reality !! )x
OH YARS !! ron.dearest is BACK !! YEA ~~~~~~~~~ XD

alrights,
better stop typing for now cos it's gonna be 12 soon.
&i'd have to be a good alien and go sleep /=





OYASUMI MINA !! ^^
*huggies*

okays ~
guess what !?
II FREAKING HELL SPEND $388 TODAY !!
power right ? =x
bought a freaking belt for $106 cos it's customize xD
bought one white Victorian like top for $40 something
bought one black top and bottom for $61 *clubbing wear*
then withdrew out $110 for the repair of my bass&sheesha
then another $42.30 on taxi fare =.="

now my bank is left with ehhs ..
$608 =.=
but lucky would have another $200 on sunday after photoshoots xD
sibei heng uhhs !!

today met up with qiqiMEI, kimberly&dawn*my sch sec mate*
met at fareast first then ate at Hans.
cabbed to parklane to collect my bass&continued to haji lane for sheesha
sheesha till 12 then cabbed home

I MISS RON.dearest !! )x
SHIIT !!
hais ~
dunno lurs ..
T.T

&S.O.Y is in a few hrs time !! {x
&ron would be coming back too ~
YEA ~
hees ^^

&ii better stop spending like nobody's business =.=
the whole day i've been 'sua-ing' my nets lurs ~
shitty hell !!
LOL

okays ~
gonna go wash up and do face mask then go orhorhh lo ~
wahahas xD

let's see .
next sat jiji's fetching me from work
then go airport *dont look at me, continue reading* xD
jiji wanna buy the elmo there&other stuffs ii guess ~
then we're gonna go eat popeye *which would be my first time*
then after tt swensen's ice cream *it's been years~*
*yea ~
then sky train *never sit before leis /=

lalalas ~

then next sun would be zoo with ron.dearest ~
LOL

next week's gonna be a nice good week {x
lalalas ~

fuckk shiit !
ii cant sleep anymore =.="
fuckking hell mumsie gave me a sudden wake up cos my music was too loud *FUCKK!
after tt the freaking mump's pain is coming back slowly
making it difficult for me to sleep making me wake up in the end
cos of the fuckking intolerant pain T.T
the pain is all coming back now !!
SHIT !!
&II BLOODY HELL GOT S.O.Y in 1+ days more *stabs*

ii wonder if ron.dearest sleeping now /=
hope he is, heh ~
yet ii hope now could be sat and he'd be coming back already x.X
*sceeschh ~

i've been thinking through the whole night.
firstly, it's impossible tt ron.dearest would ever be with me
thus ii must refrain myself from thinking of him too much
secondly, ii cannot continue anymore with someone ii know clearly tt my feelings isn't there anymore but yet ..
how sure am ii with my own feelings ,?
third, ii need a bf who could give me all the attention&sweet enough lik ron.dearest
thus Gab is definetly out *sorry dearBoy*
but ii wonder how to tell him all these ~
or maybe ..
ii wont ?
idk lurs .
SHIT!

i'm so used to single life tt idk wtf is love anymore lurs !!
Zz ~




ii think ii sld list down things on why ii should end this r/s:
`lack of communication

`he cld NEVER think of surprises

`there's nth to do when it's just both of us

`i'm like a PET following his friends&him along everytime ii meet them

`he never thinks how his words actually cld hurt me at times*&he'll never know*

`he has too much friends around him

`he has too much girl friends knowing him *i dont mind but it pissed me everytime we had to stop walking cos of his lil girls suddenly seeing him and having a chat EVERYTIME*

`he's NOT a good kisser x.X

`he calls me when he cld use the phone before lights off and wld always ask me to hang on for
more than half of the time knowing very well ii dont have incoming calls !!

`he always smokes infront of me knowing tt ii HATE it !!

`he ISN'T tt gentlement /=

`i'm more of the bf than a gf when i'm with him

`he thinks highly of his singing =.=" *ii bet ii can find a better one so stop going on and on bout
how you sound like jay chou !!*

`he'd suddenly 'scold' me when ii sit on the bloody floor when he knows how fucking tired ii am*WTF !*

`having a 'prefect' bf isn't so prefect afterall ~

`th way he sms sometimes is sucha TURN OFF !!


NOW,
to list things tt is more positive maybe :
`we never even quarrel once in this 1mth+

`finally ii got a bf tt is taller =.="

`he's a decent guy

`he's faithful*ii think*

ii cant think of anymore X.X




&NOW for reasons ii sld REFRAIN from continueing falling for ron.dearest:
`he'd surely NOT like me back or even have any feelings

`ii think i'm too tall for him*ii think he should mind lo*

`he doesnt call me dear as much as the previous days but ..
he's calling me in reality when we're out so aiyars !! dunno if this's a reason or not lurs /=

`bet he still love his ex

`he'd definetly want someone hotter and shorter than him for his gf

&ii cant think of anymore for now /=



BUT II CAN'T STOP THINKING OF DEAREST !!
*CRIES*

dam !!
ii really got myself into a mess ehhs /=
hais ~

i'm rotting the whole bloody day !!
ron.dearest went to bintan !! =.="
&ii have a feeling he doesn't have auto roam *CRIES*

at last ii finished stringing 174 necklaces !! *faints*
hope the money comes in tmr then it'd be SHOPPING SPREE !!
xD

espcially ii still need to pay another 73.50 for everything related to my bass =.="
fuckk !!
&it's so freaking hell weird not to have any sms while working !!!!!!!!!!!!
so used to sms-ing dearest during work lurs !!
&now he this ..
busy cheeky evil lil sweet forgetful caring silly tootiie blur piggiie dearest funny human!!
go to bintan&suppose he dont have auto roam cos there's not a single sms from him !!
THE WHOLE BLOODY DAY !!!!!!!!
*takes out chopper&awaits the day he'd reach back singapore*
muahahahahas ~

&my mind is so darn confuse now ..
all my mind cld think of now is dearest&not dearBoy !!
hais ~
shittiie hell !!
how the fuckk did ii get myself into this mess !?
/=

but FUCKK LA !!
ii just miss dearest alot lurs tt's all ii know =.=
okays..
stop staring at me tt way ..
ii know ii know !!
ii should be faithful right !?
but it's just like tt ~
hais ..

ii shall blog before ii go sleep
though i'm suppose to sleep like dunno how long ago =x
hahas ~

my head's heavy all the way during work
due to lack of sleep !! =.="
then after work cabbed home with mumsie
took my bass and rushed out of the hse&cabbed down to parklane
to fix my bass&buy stuffs for my bass.
total i'd be seeing $100 + fly away x.x

then rushed to bugis to meet ron.dearest&his friend
went to eat first then headed to his sis's sheesha shop at haji lane
sheesha, drank corona and played 5,10,15&dai di xD
then ii this blur toot keep saying wrong number like 11, 12, 18 =.="
then they laughed like siao lors !!
seriously SIAO !!
hahas ~
dam funny to see the way they laughed XD
it's a real fun night (=
ohs !!
&ii was like more than 30mins late AGAIN !! =.="
Zz ~

actually all planned to stay till 9+ or 10 de
then become 10+
then in the end we forgot bout the time and the next thing we know it's 11 !!
LOL

so walked back to bugis
bought drinks at 7eleven
then went to bugis arcade cos the guys need toilet =.="
ii was looking at the machine to pick soft toys de
and ii was so attracted to this particular soft toy
ron.dearest saw me kept looking at it and standing there
then he actually went to change money and tried to catch it for me lurs !!
but all the attempts failed )x
actually can de lors, but when the thing pick up then go all the way to the top,
then the soft toy dropped lurs T.T
but thanks anyway for trying to get for me xD
still as sweet and silly as ever ~
hees ^^

then they send me off first.

talked on the phone with dearBoy on the way home on the bus.
when reached my bus stop.
saw BENEDICT SISTER !!
*it's a guy okays !! just tt ii call him sister then he call me brother*
hahas ~
saw him with shaun kor too and mashall*is a girl*
then after tt sister walked me home dispite tt his foot is hurt.
aww ~
sweet sister as ever XD
LOL

and here ii am gonna go turn in for the night now (=
so ..

NIGHTIIE NIGHTS PEEPS !! xD

stayed at home the whole day,
fell asleep while sms-ing ron.dearest *sorry ii kept falling asleep*
almost didnt wake up in time to prepare to meet him.
talked to dearBoy before ii started preparing.

but luckily ii did ! xD
cabbed to bugis cos i'm late again*as usual* =x
met him at 730 +
didnt know where to go so in the end walked to marina
&ate our dinner at Jack's Place *my second time going in my whole life*
ii only ate less than half of the portion lurs =.="
cos it still hurts&he paid for everything !! *faints*
he's always paying for me lurs ~
Zz ..

then went to see what movie to watch and there isn't much
thus we took mrt and went to cathay ~
watched 'The Wedding Game'
this time ii pay if not i'm gonna feel so bad !
at Jack's Place the bill was 40 ++ lurs !!
Zz~

we had 1hr + before the show thus ..
went to gramophone&ii bought another modern classic cd xD
yes yes ii know, i've been buying these nowadays /=
but no choice, it just attracts me ALOT !!
hahas ~

then went to Starbucks to drink&slack
till it was time then went up.
&ii this tootiie toot as usual was so blur ii took out my old tix
instead of our tix =.="
hahas ~

show wasn't bad at all {x
&ii cried *Zz ~*
then ron.dearest was like looking at me then pat my head =.=
*i'm not a cat though ii know you say ii sound like one*
Zz ~

after tt ..
walked all the way to esplanade cos no where to go ..
then we're at underneath the highway ii think.
then ii was like trying to get to the top and see the road
and guess what ?
ii slide all the way down then fell .
he couldnt stop the lil friction then ii almost cried =.="
then slack there awhile and run there&here lil some kiddo till it's too darn hot.

so next destination ~
walked to boat quay .
LOL
at the river there one of the statue there sit down and listen music
and singing and talking.
then ii this toot started emo-ing and thinking of papa =.="
Zz ~

went back at 4am by cabby .
and as usual he's tt sweet evil cheeky silly forgetful lil human
tt always sees me off first (=
LOL

and there goes part of my ang bao money x.X










*sorry dearBoy tt ii didnt pick up your call,
was in the cinema tt time*

ohs !!
&ii got a new dearest .
LOL
&tt person is ..
*drumroll please ~*
and presenting my new dearest..
non other then RON*TH EVIL SWEET HUMAN !!
LOL

why he's my new dearest leis,
cos he started calling me dear,
&pls dont mistaken ppl !!
Gabz still my dearBoy{x

ron's calling me dear for shortform for HIS DEAREST LIL ALIEN TURTLE!
LOL
then he say call me dear more sweet arbo how to become
my sweet lil evil human .
Zz ~

such excuse also he can think of =.="
power siol !!

ARGHH !
i'm bored ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
lalalas ~

cant wait for sat !!
S.O.Y !!
YES !! FINALLY IT'S COMING !! XD
woots ,! ~

gonna go repair my bass on wed which is the day i'm going back to work =.="
but now i'm thinking..
HOW THE HELL AM II SUPPOSE TO CARRY MY BASS !?
ii just realized ii threw away my bass carrier =.="
fuck Fuck FUCK !!
Zz ~
unless ii buy a bass bag first then fix =.="
then like this ii need to travel twice !!
Zz ~

it'll be weird if ii just carry the bass around itself right ?
Zz ~
how how how !?
nbcb !!
why the hell ii so blur =.="
*ARGHH !! ~
bloody hellie !!
*stabs*

and i'm thinking if ii should send my bass to..
let them carve out dragon&phoenix on it.
like dam nice lurs !! xD
but it's gonna cost HUNDREDS to do it /=
hrmm ~
any ideas ppl ,?

needa practice harder;
strive higher for the band !! xD
we're gonna make it {x