GUESS WHAT !?
I'VE LOST 4KG SINCE II GOT MUMPS !!
yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ~
*round of applause for myself*
okays, ii know i'm kinda crazy now =x
wahahahas ~

but just tt this the first tt i've lost so much in just 1week1day ?
LOL
being in the heavy bone catogary, it's hard for me to lose weight tt easily.
but YEA !!
at long last *GRINS*

4 more kgs to go {x
=x

&ii just realized something !!
WHERE DID WAYNE.GF'S BLOG GO TO !?
T.T

okays ~
gonna update when i'm back home cos ii needa rush to meet qiqiMEI now ~
*if my bro doesnt hook up the lappy with maple again tt is*
=.="

&TMR FINALLY II COULD SEE DEARBOY AGAIN !!
xD
^______________________________^
*loves x33

let us stay this way nw&forever alrights ?

i'm rotting at home the whole freaking day already !
been occupying myself th whole day by..
playing facebook =.="

oohs ohhs !
&dearBoy called me using his friend's phone ! xD
SUPER HAPPY OKAYS !!
ii thought ii wouldn't get to hear his voice before bed )x
but NO ! ii get to hear his voice but it was so darn short !!
all thanks to mumsie ! =.="
she put dunno what medication on the pain&told me ii cant talk !!
FUCKK !

but at least last night ii didnt get up as many times as th nights before,
think cos the medication helps to numb it {x
finally !!
SLEEP AFTER LIKE DUNNO HOW MANY DAYS !!
wOOts ~

&tmr i'd have to go back to mummy's shop =.="
dam it !!
ii still wanna slack ~
=x
i'm so darn bored now !!
&ii miss my dearBoy )x

i'm thinking on whether to go back to ite or not leis /=
should ii ?
ii have to apply by this fri 4 pm !!
Zz ~
shitty hell =.="

idk what ii wanna do leis ..
beauty terapy ?
hair fashion&design ?
pastry&baking ?
calinary *western* ?
or back to my digital animation ?
Zz ~

ii wish ii wish with all my heart ..
to have him here and never part*

met dearBoy finally when ii end work,
almost couldn't go find him when he book out lurs
&ii cried in the room )x
then finally mummy let me go xD

didnt have the energy to walk to fareast at my usual speed,
ii swear i'm walking even slower than any grandma lurs !!
totally no energy to walk but had to force myself to cos ii wanna see dearBoy !!
waited for him at 7-11 there,
&when he reached ..
ONE WHOLE FREAKING BIG GROUP !! *faints*
&ii thought i'd only me him and me ~
but nvm {x
as long as he's there ~

walked around&didnt talk much either,
cos it still freaking hurts T.T
slacked around,
then around 10+ walked to cine,
they wanted to watch movie,
ii wanted to follow but back out at the last min
cos it's just too painful )x
bus-ed back home ~

couldn't sleep properly either !!
fuckking hell =.="
ii cant lie down to sleep cos it hurts too darn much ,!
T.T
turned&turned but no use ..
finally at 3+ am sms deardearr&asked him if he's still outside or what,
&he's back home !! XD
called him&tried my best to talk to him {x
let him go orhorhh first cos can hear through the phone tt he's falling asleep .
stared blankly at my room and finally ii fell asleep !!
but only slept for 2hrs+ before ii woke up from the pain again =.="
FUCKK !!

so went to the living room and watched OKTO xD
dearBoy was awake by tt time too {x
dam surprised lurs cos ii thought he'd be sleeping till afternoon ~
mummy also dam cleaver ..
buy lor mee for me =.="
ii can't even put the bloody fork into my mouth lurs !!
so ate like 2-3 mouth&tt's it !!
ii ain't eating anymore of it ..

waited for mummy to go work then went to prepare ,
went to simei to find dearBoy cos he's booking in on tt day *which is sunday*
walked around EP with his friends ,
then slack at the blks there ~

boyer went up to change first cos he's booking in too but earlier ~
LOL
then see them acting like sir and recruit !!
dam funny lurs !!
but cant laugh tt much cos it hurts more tt day )x
then boyer went off lurs,
now is dearBoy's turn to go home&prepare ~
LOL

the uniform these days ahh ..
C.M.I la !! x.X
from far still alright but near tt time ..
seriously nth to say ~
=x

fell asleep while waiting for dearBoy to prepare ~
&ii wonder who the hell made the rule tt..
army ppl cant kiss, hug or even hold their gf's hand when they're in their uniforms !!
*BAHHS !!
unfair lurs ,! *grr ~
but ii'm in for the rule tt they cant smoke in their uniforms !! xD
wahahas ~

sent dearBoy off at tanan merah ~
dam depressing lurs,
just imagine ..
your bf is infront of you going to book in&yet you cant bloody hell even hold his hands !!
Zz ~
II WANT TO COMPLAIN !!
*better not though, wait ganna sue* =x
hahas ~

&now's monday !!
pain is still getting worst =.="
FUCKK LA !
&dearBoy ganna rp for 3 days !!
WTF !!
tt means ii wont hear anything from him till thursday night ,!
T.T
just cos of some stupid thing =.="
NBCB RULES !!
at least let him use for 1 min ii also happy lo !!
*points middle finger*

so guess i'd be turning in early for tonight *if ii can even fall asleep*
=.="
&ii freaking miss him la !! )x
*CRIES*

&ii just wanna be with him..
now&forever ..
can ii ?

freaking hell,
ii woke up this morning to find out the back of my cheekbone
hurts like fuckking hell !! =.="
ii cant talk much,
even if ii dont move my mouth,
it still freaking hurts !!!!!!
NBCB !! *okays ii know i'm being so darn fierce for nth* xD

tmr Tmr TMR !!
dearBoy's booking out at last {x

hrmm ~
&to think tt day at alice88 ..
ii maybe saw his ex ..
making my mind think lotsa things since then ..
idk lurs ~
FUCKKING BRAIN ALWAYS THINK USELESS THINGS !!
*bahhs !!*
but ii cant help it..
there's just too many unanswered questions but yet ..
ii dont wanna know any truth to it /=

i'm home after work ..
too tired to even walk to Mango with mummy =.=
almost had a fuckking bus accident,
nbcb car !!
and also almost had a fuckking taxi accident in the morning !!
NBCB VAN !!
some more suddenly cut in TWICE !!
NBCB ! CURSE YOUR WHOLE FUCKKING FAMILY LA !!!!
CUT ONCE WITHOUT WARNING STILL NOT ENOUGH,
MUST CUT TWICE AH !?
MOTHER FOOKER MAGGOT !!
GO FUCKK SPIDER LA !!
*yaya ~ today's a bad day !!*
*stabs*
*eerie classical music plays in the background with a hidden laughter every few seconds*

hahas ~
ii freaking miss dearBoy !!
*girls&gans, dont worry ii miss you all too okays*
^^

now i'm wondering how i'm gonna survive the rest of the mth with like ..
$170 in my bank /=
shitty hell !!







to qiqiMEI: you think too much lurs nars meimeii,
i'm just meaning get someone else to go out with you..
cos ii really too tired, sorry if you misunderstand yea ~
dont think so much lurs silly girl {x *huggs*

ii wish ii wont think so much,
but ii cant control the other me*

Wed*
dearBoy book into camp again )x
sat then book out again =.="
*bahhs ~

after work went bugis meet takuya/dansonKOR {x
walked to alice88 & guess what !?
ii freaking spend $160 there *faints*
now my bank left only $170 =.="
&it's only like 1+ week of January *stabs*
fuckk sia !!
&i'm gonna spend ii think around 100+ to 200+ at alice88 next mth
cos doing some customize cloths&stuffs xD
suddenly so into japan stuffs again *OMG LA*

then after tt we walked to clarke quay *yes,WALK !!*
wanted to see Asuki have what but sadly it's closed by tt time.
then guess the next part ..
we walked back to bugis cos kor wanna check out CatsA
but closed by the time we reached ..
so ..........
we walked to parklane there de soy bean ~
sit there & korkorr told me lotsa stories and stuffs O.O

then walked to the bus stop,
while walking dearBoy called !! xD
but sadly ii was still with korkorr tt time so we put down the phone very soon )x
talked at the bus stop till korkorr's last bus came,
then my turn {x
by tt time dearBoy fell asleep lurs T.T
gonna meet takuya/dansonKOR the next time when it's S.O.Y =D
then maybe then,
there might be pictures taken ^^

Thurs*
didnt go out,
went straight home instead,
played ps2 till ii almost fell asleep then went to living room and watched tv
for like 30mins ?
then off the tv and here ii am blogging&waiting for dearBoy's call {x
after tmr then sat dearBoy book out lurs !! xD
YEA-NESS !!

how ii wish ii control the time,
then ii wldn't have to wait to see him *

after work went to find dearBoy&his bunkmates
at luckyplaza de pool ~
heiheii ^^

at last can see him lurs !!
*ii know it's only been one day tt ii didnt see him okays*
/=
but ii miss him la ,!
*bahhs ~

deardearr shave number 1 xD
heiheii ~
dam nice to touch lurs =x
wahahahas ~

now talking to deardearr on the phone,
guess he going to sleep soon bahs ..
/=

ii left 24more days to haunt for my maid's shoe !!
dam hell =.="

&fuckking O lvl results is coming out next week ,!
FUCKK FUCKK FUCKK !
SURE DIE LIAOS !
CB !
why must come out so soon =.="
hais ~

&ii freaking miss dearBoy )x
ii want his huggies now !! x.X
*bahhs ,!

sometimes ii just cant help feeling scared..
scared tt he'd leave one day ~

PICTURE TIME xD

ii was precisely rotting on new year's day itself )x
didnt get to meet dearBoy tt day either T.T
&he booked in at night ~

fri started work again,
met qiqiMEI&thunder at mogumogu,
then altogether got 3 other guys came&join in too ~
one of which is Nicholas which is actually know who ii am,
he was from my ex ite sch o.O!
DAM ! i'm popular ! xD
hahas ~
no lurs, just cos ii wear differently from the rest tt all,
&ii always carry jack jack around {x

then went to cine and played arcade,
then go amk slack .
cabbed home.

Sat met dearBoy after my work
&went to marina Cafe Cartel to eat xD
wanted to watch movie but the timings and all is so not going to our time,
walked to suntec city,
found out Asuki isn't there anymore,
went to the sky garden and slacked there{x
send dearBoy off to the mrt then walked back to suntec & took bus home.

Sun went to simei cos going Auntie Muriel's hse ,
having lunch buffet and all she cook !! O.O
food was nice as always xD
after tt cabbed to simei,
saw JEREMY.SILLYBOY !! ^^
hahas !
some more sunday is just the day after ii gt back his number ,! (=
played around with the cameras there while waiting for dearBoy =x
then sillyboy got break lurs then he go smoke first
which was when ii saw dearBoy coming AT LAST ! =D
parted with sillyboy.

went to cathay and watched 'transporter3'
then went to park lane around there see dearBoy eat chicken rice,
then we went to eat soy bean curd {x
then walked to bugis street,
was trying to find my shoe for my lolita maid's costume,
cant find it )x
was so pek cek lurs ~

send dearBoy back to simei,
slacked awhile with his friend then took cab to bedok and took bus 14 home.

talked on the phone till 5+ am to dearBoy.
*can i put my trust in you boy ,? are you really true ,?*

Monday which is today ..
suppose to go out with takuyaKOR but in the end he cldn't make it )x
was darn moody the whole day.

precisely ii thought ii could meet up with dearBoy today but NO !
he's meeting his friends,
dont wanna bother him so guess ii kept everything inside
and am starting to hate myself all over again !!
hais ~

each time ii miss him and ii know his outside enjoying with his friends,
ii seriously feel like crying ..
ii feel like dying ..
feel like just disappearing till the time ii cld see him again ..
bet he doesnt feel this way ..

cos when ii love a person ..
i'll always love him more than he does ~
i'm trying my best to keep everything to myself ..
i'm trying my best not to do fuckking silly things..
but each time ii miss him..
only one thing comes into my mind ..
suicidal ............
i fuckking miss him !!
but ii cant possibably tell him all this ,!

he'll feel guilty right ?
thus all ii cld do is act alright ,
it's hurting to hide the truth of how much ii wanna see him NOW !
but ii have to hold the truth back ..
why the fuckk am ii even crying now !?
SHIIT !
hais ..

think ii shall start making an imaginary friend,
then ii cld tell tt 'friend' whatever i'm feeling ~
*kinda crazy ehhs ?*
hais ..

he'll never understand ..
how much an alien like me would love him ..

this pain ..
ii wish it'd go away ~
II FREAKING MISS HIM LA !!
hais ..

death pls take me away now wont you ?
soon ii wont be able to endure the pain anymore ..

taken before going work on the eve of new year's eve. LOL




this is how my room looks like now xD




Hangry&Angry xD



Just some pics taken during new year eve {x




this is what i'm gonna wear for S.O.Y 2009 xD
it's on the 31Jan *at Ngee Ann poly*

new year eve was fun overall .
met qiqiMEI at DGmrt first.
then went to ps de kopitiam find dearBoy&his friends {x
meimeii&ii bought fruits to eat which cost $10.60 =.="
fruits leis !! how the hell did it add up to so much !?
*bahhs !
nvm ~

then dearBoy&his friends went to dunno where first,
cos of some reasons meimeii&me stayed at the kopitiam talking .
then they came back after awhile saying they going cityhall lurs.
so went off to cityhall ~
*sorry dearBoy if ii left you out* )x
met Glady's at the mrt there (=
sweet lil girl xD
went to marina to find mich.fishyball/laobu & hq~
LOL

later dearBoy's friends went off to play pool so ..
dearBoy, qiqiMEI, mich.fishyball/laobu&gladys plus me
went walking around,
then went outside burgerking cos meimeii meeting her friend for awhile there
i'm like precisely dam sleepy tt time cos of the effect of the medication =.="
bloodyhelliie ~
x.X

after tt dearBoy's friends came to find us lurs .
we girls went to the toilet to camwhore first =x
then gladys went off to town ~
then thus, later meimeii&fishyball/laobu went off to find HQ
while ii stick with dearBoy&his friends {=

went to downtown east ~
it's darn happening there lurs !!
hahas

after midnight countdown to new year ~
then spray spray and fake snow everywhere !!!!!!!!!!!! *faints*
after tt went into the club..
so many ppl lurs !!
not really a club though but they used the bigbig tent there ~
LOL
then got shuffle battle !!
woohoo ~
dam nice lurs *KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ! ~

then slack awhile more then took cab home .
&IT'S FUCKKING EXPENSIVE LURS!
FUCKKING 34 GONE FROM MY WALLET !!
i'm so NOT going to take taxi home when i'm like the other end of s'pore =.="
nbcb!!

&ii cant wait for S.O.Y !!
xD

&lastly ..
I EEFING MISS DEARBOY LOTSA LOTSA !!
T.T

&here ii am thinking..
he's gonna book in again in afew more hrs )x