fuckk shiit !
ii cant sleep anymore =.="
fuckking hell mumsie gave me a sudden wake up cos my music was too loud *FUCKK!
after tt the freaking mump's pain is coming back slowly
making it difficult for me to sleep making me wake up in the end
cos of the fuckking intolerant pain T.T
the pain is all coming back now !!
SHIT !!
&II BLOODY HELL GOT S.O.Y in 1+ days more *stabs*

ii wonder if ron.dearest sleeping now /=
hope he is, heh ~
yet ii hope now could be sat and he'd be coming back already x.X
*sceeschh ~

i've been thinking through the whole night.
firstly, it's impossible tt ron.dearest would ever be with me
thus ii must refrain myself from thinking of him too much
secondly, ii cannot continue anymore with someone ii know clearly tt my feelings isn't there anymore but yet ..
how sure am ii with my own feelings ,?
third, ii need a bf who could give me all the attention&sweet enough lik ron.dearest
thus Gab is definetly out *sorry dearBoy*
but ii wonder how to tell him all these ~
or maybe ..
ii wont ?
idk lurs .
SHIT!

i'm so used to single life tt idk wtf is love anymore lurs !!
Zz ~




ii think ii sld list down things on why ii should end this r/s:
`lack of communication

`he cld NEVER think of surprises

`there's nth to do when it's just both of us

`i'm like a PET following his friends&him along everytime ii meet them

`he never thinks how his words actually cld hurt me at times*&he'll never know*

`he has too much friends around him

`he has too much girl friends knowing him *i dont mind but it pissed me everytime we had to stop walking cos of his lil girls suddenly seeing him and having a chat EVERYTIME*

`he's NOT a good kisser x.X

`he calls me when he cld use the phone before lights off and wld always ask me to hang on for
more than half of the time knowing very well ii dont have incoming calls !!

`he always smokes infront of me knowing tt ii HATE it !!

`he ISN'T tt gentlement /=

`i'm more of the bf than a gf when i'm with him

`he thinks highly of his singing =.=" *ii bet ii can find a better one so stop going on and on bout
how you sound like jay chou !!*

`he'd suddenly 'scold' me when ii sit on the bloody floor when he knows how fucking tired ii am*WTF !*

`having a 'prefect' bf isn't so prefect afterall ~

`th way he sms sometimes is sucha TURN OFF !!


NOW,
to list things tt is more positive maybe :
`we never even quarrel once in this 1mth+

`finally ii got a bf tt is taller =.="

`he's a decent guy

`he's faithful*ii think*

ii cant think of anymore X.X




&NOW for reasons ii sld REFRAIN from continueing falling for ron.dearest:
`he'd surely NOT like me back or even have any feelings

`ii think i'm too tall for him*ii think he should mind lo*

`he doesnt call me dear as much as the previous days but ..
he's calling me in reality when we're out so aiyars !! dunno if this's a reason or not lurs /=

`bet he still love his ex

`he'd definetly want someone hotter and shorter than him for his gf

&ii cant think of anymore for now /=



BUT II CAN'T STOP THINKING OF DEAREST !!
*CRIES*

dam !!
ii really got myself into a mess ehhs /=
hais ~

i'm rotting the whole bloody day !!
ron.dearest went to bintan !! =.="
&ii have a feeling he doesn't have auto roam *CRIES*

at last ii finished stringing 174 necklaces !! *faints*
hope the money comes in tmr then it'd be SHOPPING SPREE !!
xD

espcially ii still need to pay another 73.50 for everything related to my bass =.="
fuckk !!
&it's so freaking hell weird not to have any sms while working !!!!!!!!!!!!
so used to sms-ing dearest during work lurs !!
&now he this ..
busy cheeky evil lil sweet forgetful caring silly tootiie blur piggiie dearest funny human!!
go to bintan&suppose he dont have auto roam cos there's not a single sms from him !!
THE WHOLE BLOODY DAY !!!!!!!!
*takes out chopper&awaits the day he'd reach back singapore*
muahahahahas ~

&my mind is so darn confuse now ..
all my mind cld think of now is dearest&not dearBoy !!
hais ~
shittiie hell !!
how the fuckk did ii get myself into this mess !?
/=

but FUCKK LA !!
ii just miss dearest alot lurs tt's all ii know =.=
okays..
stop staring at me tt way ..
ii know ii know !!
ii should be faithful right !?
but it's just like tt ~
hais ..

ii shall blog before ii go sleep
though i'm suppose to sleep like dunno how long ago =x
hahas ~

my head's heavy all the way during work
due to lack of sleep !! =.="
then after work cabbed home with mumsie
took my bass and rushed out of the hse&cabbed down to parklane
to fix my bass&buy stuffs for my bass.
total i'd be seeing $100 + fly away x.x

then rushed to bugis to meet ron.dearest&his friend
went to eat first then headed to his sis's sheesha shop at haji lane
sheesha, drank corona and played 5,10,15&dai di xD
then ii this blur toot keep saying wrong number like 11, 12, 18 =.="
then they laughed like siao lors !!
seriously SIAO !!
hahas ~
dam funny to see the way they laughed XD
it's a real fun night (=
ohs !!
&ii was like more than 30mins late AGAIN !! =.="
Zz ~

actually all planned to stay till 9+ or 10 de
then become 10+
then in the end we forgot bout the time and the next thing we know it's 11 !!
LOL

so walked back to bugis
bought drinks at 7eleven
then went to bugis arcade cos the guys need toilet =.="
ii was looking at the machine to pick soft toys de
and ii was so attracted to this particular soft toy
ron.dearest saw me kept looking at it and standing there
then he actually went to change money and tried to catch it for me lurs !!
but all the attempts failed )x
actually can de lors, but when the thing pick up then go all the way to the top,
then the soft toy dropped lurs T.T
but thanks anyway for trying to get for me xD
still as sweet and silly as ever ~
hees ^^

then they send me off first.

talked on the phone with dearBoy on the way home on the bus.
when reached my bus stop.
saw BENEDICT SISTER !!
*it's a guy okays !! just tt ii call him sister then he call me brother*
hahas ~
saw him with shaun kor too and mashall*is a girl*
then after tt sister walked me home dispite tt his foot is hurt.
aww ~
sweet sister as ever XD
LOL

and here ii am gonna go turn in for the night now (=
so ..

NIGHTIIE NIGHTS PEEPS !! xD

stayed at home the whole day,
fell asleep while sms-ing ron.dearest *sorry ii kept falling asleep*
almost didnt wake up in time to prepare to meet him.
talked to dearBoy before ii started preparing.

but luckily ii did ! xD
cabbed to bugis cos i'm late again*as usual* =x
met him at 730 +
didnt know where to go so in the end walked to marina
&ate our dinner at Jack's Place *my second time going in my whole life*
ii only ate less than half of the portion lurs =.="
cos it still hurts&he paid for everything !! *faints*
he's always paying for me lurs ~
Zz ..

then went to see what movie to watch and there isn't much
thus we took mrt and went to cathay ~
watched 'The Wedding Game'
this time ii pay if not i'm gonna feel so bad !
at Jack's Place the bill was 40 ++ lurs !!
Zz~

we had 1hr + before the show thus ..
went to gramophone&ii bought another modern classic cd xD
yes yes ii know, i've been buying these nowadays /=
but no choice, it just attracts me ALOT !!
hahas ~

then went to Starbucks to drink&slack
till it was time then went up.
&ii this tootiie toot as usual was so blur ii took out my old tix
instead of our tix =.="
hahas ~

show wasn't bad at all {x
&ii cried *Zz ~*
then ron.dearest was like looking at me then pat my head =.=
*i'm not a cat though ii know you say ii sound like one*
Zz ~

after tt ..
walked all the way to esplanade cos no where to go ..
then we're at underneath the highway ii think.
then ii was like trying to get to the top and see the road
and guess what ?
ii slide all the way down then fell .
he couldnt stop the lil friction then ii almost cried =.="
then slack there awhile and run there&here lil some kiddo till it's too darn hot.

so next destination ~
walked to boat quay .
LOL
at the river there one of the statue there sit down and listen music
and singing and talking.
then ii this toot started emo-ing and thinking of papa =.="
Zz ~

went back at 4am by cabby .
and as usual he's tt sweet evil cheeky silly forgetful lil human
tt always sees me off first (=
LOL

and there goes part of my ang bao money x.X










*sorry dearBoy tt ii didnt pick up your call,
was in the cinema tt time*

ohs !!
&ii got a new dearest .
LOL
&tt person is ..
*drumroll please ~*
and presenting my new dearest..
non other then RON*TH EVIL SWEET HUMAN !!
LOL

why he's my new dearest leis,
cos he started calling me dear,
&pls dont mistaken ppl !!
Gabz still my dearBoy{x

ron's calling me dear for shortform for HIS DEAREST LIL ALIEN TURTLE!
LOL
then he say call me dear more sweet arbo how to become
my sweet lil evil human .
Zz ~

such excuse also he can think of =.="
power siol !!

ARGHH !
i'm bored ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
lalalas ~

cant wait for sat !!
S.O.Y !!
YES !! FINALLY IT'S COMING !! XD
woots ,! ~

gonna go repair my bass on wed which is the day i'm going back to work =.="
but now i'm thinking..
HOW THE HELL AM II SUPPOSE TO CARRY MY BASS !?
ii just realized ii threw away my bass carrier =.="
fuck Fuck FUCK !!
Zz ~
unless ii buy a bass bag first then fix =.="
then like this ii need to travel twice !!
Zz ~

it'll be weird if ii just carry the bass around itself right ?
Zz ~
how how how !?
nbcb !!
why the hell ii so blur =.="
*ARGHH !! ~
bloody hellie !!
*stabs*

and i'm thinking if ii should send my bass to..
let them carve out dragon&phoenix on it.
like dam nice lurs !! xD
but it's gonna cost HUNDREDS to do it /=
hrmm ~
any ideas ppl ,?

needa practice harder;
strive higher for the band !! xD
we're gonna make it {x

jamming practice session with the band is FUN FUN FUN !!
xD
woohoo !!
can't wait for next sunday for our next jamming session {x
wahahaas ~
but played till my fingers pain =.="

it's like 1yr + since ii touched bass lurs !!
Zz ~
&it feels so great to play it again xD

&ii just finished my reunion dinner ~
fast ehhs ,?
LOL

ytd end work at 230 pm
then went home to change my phone batt,
met sebas korkorr at tiong mrt then headed towards bugis
then around 5 we headed to taka meet korkor's friend
then bout 5+ coming 6 headed to cine to meet TBStwin;TBSlaopo {x
zen was there too ~

at 6+ coming to 7 headed to fareast with the whole group to meet my band.
TBStwin;TBSlaopo went walk walk first while waiting for me,
then korkorr followed me to meet the band.
listened to the 3 songs and the chords&discussed my bassline .

dearBoy reached and met TBS first {x
went to find them around 8+
went to mogumogu to eat.
then korkorr left at 9

then TBS left so left dearBoy&me xD
walked to cine cos dearBoy wanna eat {x
then walked to istana park there and listen music and look through my scores .
around 12plus headed to bus stop and lucky my last 14 bus came !
and ii was in the nick of time !!
*phewws ~

reached home and put songs into my ipod and update everything .
practiced the songs till 540am then went to sleep ~
LOL

lucky mummy didnt make me follow her to market,
if not i'd be a walking zombie lil alien turtle when ii meet the band up at clarke quay =.="
lalalas ~

overall,
ii really enjoyed jamming with them all !! xD
they're friendly and funny !! =x
but they speak chinese so whenever they say things ii dont understand,
like "li bai" *meaning sunday* ii was like ...
HUH !? WHAT'S LI BAI TIAN ?
then they all laugh !! =.=
LOL
but yea ~
FUN FUN FUN !!
&ii want more More MORE jamming sessions !!
^______________________________________^













*TARGETS FOR THIS CNY*
`for the band to be able to perform by this year
`improve my bass
`lose another 6-8kg *ii gained back 2kg =.=*
`get into ite in any course tt ii opted
`more photoshoots
`get the laptop tt ii want tt cost $3599 =.="
`find a nice flip phone with camera !! xD
`modify my whole room
`get bloodred of black curtains for my bed
`more gothic lolita stuffs
`more pay !! =x
`more high society modern classical cds
`have my hair dyed to charcoal black !! *yes, i miss my freaking black hair!!*
`more cats/turtle/rabbit/skull/moon/star stuffs /=
*ii cant think of anymore for now*
hahas ~

*wakaranai*

okays !!
how nice lors next sunday =.="
need to rush to 3 places ~
first is get up in th morning and rush for jamming session.
12-2
then rush to botanic garden for photoshoots
230-430
then rush to bugis to meet ron for sheesha at his sis shop
5-late late late at night ~

Zz ~
lucky ii dont need to bring precious bass around xD
wahahahas ~

tmr dearBoy's gonna book out !!
yea !! xD

then sat gonna meet up my band members to discuss my bassline
then meet qiqimei cos she's gonna pass me dress o.O
then meet dearBoy cos it's out first mth xD

wahahas ~
suddenly life's so darn busy =.="
feel like quitting the job at mumsie's shop /=

dunno lurs,
suddenly life is so darn busy on weekend tt i'm thinking ..
can ii really cope all these new things ,?
hrmm ~

nvm, shall not think bout this now~
let one day by one day pass as it is {x
&ii miss dearBoy freaking much !!

been passing my time fast by sms-ing ron
from when ii wake up till we sleep =.="
i'm so gonna make his bill BURST !! XD
wahahas ~
*evilGRINS*

&guess dearBoy's bill also gonna BAO ZHA !!
LOL
=x

how ii wish everything was prefect*

update update !! xD

FRI*
met up with qiqiMEI at clementi to apply for JAE
marcus was there too ~
then headed to dar east to meet emilyLAOPO&her bf
which he knows me..
he's junx.AHO classmate !! *faints*
bought a dress for $44.90 =.="
BLOODY HELL !!
SO FUCKKING EX *stabs myself*

then later pearlBBMEIMEII met up with us xD
ate at mogumogu .
then headed to meet the rest of the girls at JP {x
ate taiwan noodles *it's nice okays !!*
heiheii ^^

walked around and crapped around ~
&& JP sure have changed alot !! O_O
didnt get to walk the whole place so maybe soon {x
headed back home with sebasKOR via mrt ~





SAT*
met up with dearBoy&his friends at heeren.
went there with zenzen cos he saw me while ii was walking there {x
then went cine and took neoprints with dearBoy too ! xD
wahahhaas ~
^^
then qiqiMEI reached lurs {x
zenzen&me team up and made qiqiMEI confuse =x
*oops ~
then zenzen went off ..
slacked outside cine ..

then dearBoy and me went to walked around paragon .
then headed to clarke quay .
sweet lil memories xD
met up with boyer&2 others to drink ~
drink drank but NOT drunk !!
xD
though i'm high and ii vomitted once ii got out of the pub =.="
didnt eat any dinner and vomitted all water out ~
*bahhs !!

dearBoy send me home by taxi again ~
&talked on the phone till 6+ in the morning x.X
hahas ~

SUN*
stayed home =.="
so nth to update for today ~

MON*
went to eat sashimi with mumsie after work
then headed to bugis to meet ron {x
nice/evil human !! =x
wahahas ~

went to eat *ii ate dessert*
then crapped there till they closed so headed to starbucks next
*thanks for paying for me*
{x
*sorry dearBoy tt ii didnt talk much* )x

then continue crapping till again ..
starbucks close =.="
so went to sit outside ajisan&continued xD
LOL
till 12 + then went to the bus stop to check my last bus ~
&it has passed already =.="

so went to find a taxi with nets ~
*thanks for waiting for me to get on first before going*
*&thanks for offering to pay for my cabbie but nahs ~*
hahas

precisely it's really an enjoyable day lurs {x

*TUES
nth much =.="
went work ~
came home and cook to prepare for cny /=
watched tv&rot !!
LOL
&here ii am updating everything {x

dont' say you're a failure
cos i love you *